9.12.12 Evening

Tonight as we began the Bible study of JOB, we were asked why we were there.  I do not like this part of the group.  To have many (more eyes than I have ever seen in that room) staring at me is nerve-wracking.  Everyone is lovely and welcoming, it is me and I know that.  My response was only half of why I am there... I was encouraged to be part of the book club by PM, what I didn't say was similar to what everyone else said, many of us have gone through things in our lives and we question "why?".  I have been trying the approach that others did say, "why not me?" About 7 months ago, I started to show my gratefulness for even those things in my life that "I could do without, as they say" as I understand it's a lesson I need to learn.

I received an e-mail just as I left the Bible study, I apparently need to write in the Bible that was given for Jordan.  I did not realize this and feel completely lost on what I should write!!!! I just started reading the Bible, I do not have a "favorite".... feeling a little lost and overwhelmed!

I am grateful for the opportunity to hear the history of JOB tonight.  It is a great reminder to see what we are going through and keep our eyes on God's gracious path, in which we do not know, but must keep the Faith that "..we will be led where we did not plan to go".... Going to the Bible study was the first break I had in awhile.  I thought I had a compromise with my kids father, that allowed them to be in their own beds on time .  However, an hour and twenty minutes after their bedtime, the kids were not only awake but out of bed and tomorrow morning, I will see the consequences.  I do not know if this is going to work, as much as I want this, I know and understand the kids and their schedule come before my wants.

Dear Heavenly Father,
Your unconditional love and grace is more than any of us could ever imagine.  Please help me to live in a way that Glorifies your name and in a way that you so desire.  Please help, Peggy, Kenny, Carol, Ellen, Bob, Robin, Aunt Lorraine, Bob, and Fran to heal quickly so they too can live in a way that will Glorify your name.  I ask that you provide Jordan with the grace to continue to be the better person.
Amen

Wishing you a peaceful night and that tomorrow morning as we awaken we say a prayer of thanks for whatever part of the plan shall be in store for us tomorrow. Take that time, tomorrow is Thankful Thursday!