8.31.12 Evening

It is good to remember, God is in the business of miracles. 

¹³ Your ways, God, are holy.
What god is as great as our God?
¹⁴ You are the God who performs miracles;
you display your power among the peoples.- psalm 77

Dear Heavenly Father, I ask that you look out for those who are in need. 
Amen

8.31.12 Morning

It is official, fabulous Friday has found freedom to emerge.  As I travel south this morning to work, I will be grateful when coming back home!!! Wishing everyone a fantastic day and a beginning to a glorious weekend.  May everyone find their way to their end of summer destinations safely.  May you decide to hold God's hand and have a fabulous Friday!!!

8.30.12 Evening

I have so much to be grateful for tonight.  I have erased this several times.. I wanted to share an amazing story,  but can't figure out how to word it... I wanted to tell you what I did today, but can't figure out how to word it....

This morning I received my morning whispers prayer email... UNTIL today I receive it daily just before noon.  Today I received it at 7:20  (when I was waiting to hear about whether or not I would be going to conquer my fear).  I truly believe that I received that email when I did for a deeper meaning.   The message in a nutshell said that God promised he would take care of me.  I forwarded this message to PM at 7:30 saying I think there is a deeper meaning here....and just as i was about to conquer my fear she responded at 9:30... (she had no idea I was about to pull into the driveway)  God was there for me and I appreciate it.  I can tell you that PHASE 2, although difficult, I did it.. and I did it for more than a few minutes... so yes, I am pretty sure I am capable of doing it again. I really am PROUD of myself.. and finally had confidence that I could do something.... I know right, did I really just say that???? lol There is officially only one more phase of this and it is completely out of my hands... until then, I am going to enjoy the fact that I did it...with you, God..... thank you.

³ But you, Lord, are a shield around me,
my glory, the One who lifts my head high.
⁴ I call out to the Lord,
and he answers me from his holy mountain.- psalm 3

tomorrow will be a fabulous Friday... a long weekend for many and the opportunity for us to remember those who LABOR..... will you remember  who Labored for us to give us this opportunity?????

8.30.12 Morning

Good morning! Tremendous thankful Thursday is here! May today provide you with all the time you need to stop and be thankful! Today is the perfect time to tell everyone dear that you thank them for being a part of your life! Thank you for taking the time out of your day to be a part of my life.
Soon I will embark on walking into what will def make a difference in my life, and I will be better for it!!!
Dear Lord,
In all your goodness, I ask you watch out for those who need your guidance and support.  It is my hope that as we go along our day, we do it in a way that will glorify you!
Amen

8.29.12 Evening

If all goes as planned... tomorrow is PHASE two of conquering the fear... it is a step in the right direction.  If I do not do it, it's not because of anything I have control over, and I know that.  I also know that I have help on my side. 

1 I lift up my eyes in the hills-
    from where will my help come?
2 My help comes from the Lord,
    who made heaven and earth. -psalm 121

I know this to be true for me, I do not doubt the feeling or the peace.  As anxious or fearful it may be, I shall walk straight over it, for I have no place else to go in order to move forward.  The obstacle is only as big as I make it. 

Think about a time when you had to over come something, how big did you make it out to be, and when you did finally deal with it, you realized just how Minuit it really was? I have  no doubt in the grand scheme of things to come this really will be such a small thing in my life some day, for now it is big.  I HAVE the CONFIDENCE I need to do this.  - WOW did I really just say that? lol Wishing you a Tremendous Thursday!!!!

8.29.12 Morning

Waking up on this wonderful Wednesday, I am excited for this day to begin!  I am hopeful for what wonders it may bring!  As the sun begins to rise, I have high hopes for everyone to feel God's love through each ray.  I was reminded yesterday to view all the beauty around me.  I completely ignored a lovely rose bush and thinking back I realize how much it has grown.  It now will have a different meaning when I do see it again. Wishing you the opportunity to stop and smell the roses and thank God you can.  Time to get ready for peace, it has been a long time coming!

8.28.12 Evening

¹ You have searched me, Lord,
and you know me.
² You know when I sit and when I rise;
you perceive my thoughts from afar.
³ You discern my going out and my lying down;
you are familiar with all my ways.
⁴ Before a word is on my tongue
you, Lord, know it completely.
⁵ You hem me in behind and before,
and you lay your hand upon me.
⁶ Such knowledge is too wonderful for me,
too lofty for me to attain.- psalm 139


I talk about the lessons in life that we must learn from. This has been a REALLY big one. As it comes closer to an end, it will forever change how I live my life. I will make better choices being led by our Lord.

I did IT!!!! I faced a fear and it wasn't as bad as I had felt it would be.  I will remember that when the second part of it happens... I will try not to allow my "fear" to over take the situation.  I am completely grateful for the gracious and generous person who came with me.  I think the idea of a  peaceful companion made it so less scary.  I knew I would be alright!  So here I am, I feel like a different person that I was this afternoon.  I feel another weight removed off the shoulders.  I am so blessed and so grateful for all the support and love...  I do feel it. .and I do appreciate all the prayers... I cannot go into detail, but please know I am ok. 

I sit here in quiet, and think about all that has been going on.. I finally can feel it....it's really a sense of what I have done and what there is still to come... Yes, there are things, but nothing I can't handle with you by my side... Thank you. 

8.28.12 Morning

It is Terrific Tuesday... but I haven't yet closed my eyes from Monday.  I am sitting listening to the sounds of night all around me.  I find it almost impossible to close my eyes (although it's 1am) for the night.  I am so blessed and I really do know it.  I appreciate the support and love all around.  I know that I will be a better person and parent because I have so many people who care.  I pray that I will live in a way that glorifies God.   The fact of the matter still remains, I have a lot to do and if I am blessed enough I will wake up in the morning able to do it.  So as you wake up and read this remember two things... Today is Tuesday, take some time to teach..... that will make it a terrific Tuesday!!!!

8.27.12 Evening

I am eternally grateful for the reminders that were given to me today.  Some were gentle and another was a horrifying reminder of what I have is a precious gift and I need to value every minute, even those trying moments.  My heart breaks for Isabella's family who will no longer be able to see such a beautiful 5 year old.  I pray for her family and I pray for the 16 year old boys who are responsible for this.  Most of all I pray that Isabella did not suffer.  I ask that tonight when you close your eyes, you ask God to help her family to live with the loss. 

1 Hear my cry O God;
     listen to my prayer,
2 From the end of the earth I call to you,
     when my heart is faint. -psalm 61

Thank you for the encouragement I received today.  I will try to remember it and go back to being grateful for EVERYTHING I do have...   tomorrow I also pray for;  Peggy, a quick recovery; Robin, relief. Kelly, the answers you need for a speedy recovery...  and for myself, Peace, as I try to go over a hurdle...
For EVERYONE, may tomorrow be a Terrific Tuesday...

8.27.12 Morning

Morning, marvelous Monday made its way here.  Many teachers are in their classrooms preparing for a new year.  I pray I will receive a call soon.  However, going to start this work week with the reminder that there are so many, including some good friends who are in need of work.  I am grateful to have the opportunity to work.  I wish everyone who is in need that this week will be the week you get a call. Wishing everyone a wonderful week!

8.26.12 Evening

The kids have gone for the night.. .I am trying to listen to the fortune cookie... Dying the hair  and just chilling... Kind of been a rough one....

I am grateful we were well enough to attend Church today, I am.  I am grateful for the patience that everyone has who sits around us.  I am even more grateful for those who try to tell me it's ok.    The reality is though, it is NOT.  I am frustrated and do not know what to do anymore.  My daughter's behavior is getting worse.  If she isn't jumping and yelling, she is talking through the entire service.  I do not blame the older women who shhhd her, really I do not.  It is not peaceful, people come to Church to listen, and she is preventing that. I am embarrassed and feel bad.  I have tried to ignore the behaviors, I have tried to praise the good, I have tried to keep her busy, I have tried to entertain.  I am at that point, I just do not know what to do.  I won't stop taking her, because I know that isn't the answer.. but really what is the answer? Even my friend said that she couldn't hear Pastor Arnie and understands now why I leave more stressed out, I felt awful. 

Tomorrow will be a marvelous Monday.....

8.26.12 Morning

A new day is here for us to enjoy, we have been given a gift.   What will you do to express your thankfulness? I am going to start my day by attending HT, then working toward living in a way that glorifies God.  Spend every second as if its the last, spectacular spiritual Sunday! 

8.26.12 Evening

Thanks be to God, seems we are starting to head in the "well" direction... after sitting/sleeping most of today we accepted an invitation to go chill with friends outside.... Bounce house/pizza... pool/campfire... what more could a kid want to do??? Everyone had a nice time and I even got a little time to myself.. even if it was just to get campfire essentials (choc/marshmallows/crackers).... Thank you to the Urban Clan... always a grand time...

I am hoping that tomorrow morning we will all feel well enough to get up and make it to Church... I must say though this little outing has wiped me out.. enjoy the rest of this Super Saturday and may tomorrow send you Spiritual Sunday samples in your sleep. 

8.25.12 Morning

A week ago today, I woke up with my throat on fire... today I woke up and the kids and I still feel yucky.  HOWEVER, I am so grateful to have woken up!!! Thanks be to God.  I encouraged the kids to go back to bed and we did for a bit... chillaxin and some cleaning that's all on our plate... how about you?  How will you enjoy this super Saturday.... ? Afterall, it is a super gift!!!

8.24.12 Evening

Today I think about my friend.  She is uncertain about what is to come.  We all talk about the unknown and for many who are losing employment while everything around us is increasing, it's a terrifying thought.  I have to keep Faith that we will figure it all out.  Afterall, we always do... As one week concludes and another begins, the love from my friends has been amazing.  It is wonderful to have so many caring people in my life.  I am truly blessed.  This upcoming week, I know there are things that will weigh on my shoulders.  I will place myself in the hands of God, facing them head on, and know I shall receive guidance.

8 I will instruct you and teach you the way you should go;
       I will counsel you with my eyes upon you.

I understand, I am my own worst enemy.  I am the only person who can and will keep me from being able to overcome the things I need to.

9 Do not be like a horse or a mule, without understanding,
       whose temper must be curbed with bit and bridle,
        else it will not stay near you.

- Psalm 32

With guidance, I will push myself and find the strength in our Lord.  What are you stopping yourself from doing? Put the horse into a gallop, and jump the hurdle...  Sit back and relax, God is holding the reins. 

8.24.12 Morning

Thanks be to God, its fabulous Friday.  It seems our bodies are in need of more sleep in order to help fight the yuckiness.  May you find all that you need today to make it a fabulous Friday!

8.23.12 Evening

As this day started out, it shall also end.. in complete and utter amazement.  A year ago today, we felt an Earthquake in NJ.  (I never felt it, I was running on he street) so many people have lived through more powerful, more dangerous, and more life changing events.  For a Jersey Girl like so many, it was difficult to think that we would experience one here.  Life has certainly changed a bit in a year... how about for you?

Many will say the best laid plans..... Well it is so true.  I did everything, set everything and honestly every time I stopped today something else was changing...

There are two things in life that will not change... One we have a choice the other we don't....  Yes, change is the one we do not have a choice on... Having God be a part of all the changes, that you do have a choice... What choice do you make?

22 Cast your burden on the Lord,
          and he will sustain you;
     he will never permit
          the righteous to be moved. -Psalm 55

When you face too many changes at once, it can be overwhelming, I am so grateful to have so many people (physically and spiritually) on my side.  Tomorrow morning as we thank God it's Friday, take a moment to appreciate the beauty around you. 
This image is for a book that a very dear friend wrote a short story for.... Amazon has the book for preorder... check it out...'The Single Woman's Guide to Retirement' by Jan Cullinane Love ya Kathy!!!!

8.23.12 Morning

Wishing you a terrific thankful Thursday! I am especially grateful the sun is hiding! God is shading me from the harah rays!! Yes, i am sittin outside a target waiting to buy more sunblock too!!! Wishing someone terrific a safe, fun trip as she takws her daughter to Notre Dame today!!!

8.22.12 Evening

WOW is this not perfect? (Thank you, Stella!) Really, how many of you have told me (some) more than others that I worry too much...about everything?
No matter what is going on, I worry.  Many a nights I worry it is too much and that they deserve better. 

5: Fear and trembling come upon me,
        and horror overwhelms me. -Psalm 55

It is then that I try, try to imagine just how she did it.  It is a foreign concept as if sometimes it never happened.  Yes, there were years, though I barely recall.  I look up and ask for help. 

1. To you I lift up my eyes,
        O you who are enthroned in the heavens!
2.  As the eyes of servants
        look to the hand of their master,
     as the eyes of a maid
        to the hand of her mistress,
     so our eyes look to the Lord our God,
        until he has mercy upon us. -Psalm 123

A piece of emptiness will always exist, today a wonderful woman said "it's like you finally found what you had been looking for".  I have in some regard.  I thought long and hard about the journey that has led me to where I am today...

"The sign of God is that we will be led where we did not plan to go" -PM

So I went to CCD as a child, I went face to face with a nun (in PA), I made my Confirmation as a senior in HS, I went to a Catholic College, I took MANY religion classes instead of art history and other electives... There was always a desire... just never really felt like it was the right fit for me... The people always made it special..... but now everything about it makes sense and brings real comfort. 

I am so grateful for those things in my life that I worry about, most of them brought me along this journey.  I do understand that now I can begin to let God take some of the worry from me....  Perhaps I can....

I just agreed to cover for someone who works on the beach... so tomorrow I shall sit at the beach 9-6.... For most that is a DREAM job... for someone as fair as I... it's going to be work..to keep the SUN off of me...  Tomorrow as Thankful Thursday taps its toes, take time to thank those that touched your life...  I will begin... THANK YOU :-)

8.22.12 Morning

Last night a dear friend called me and at the end of the conversation she said "hey tomorrow is hump day"  my response was, "it will be wondrous Wednesday" let's just say her response was something that I would not post on here!! So you ask why I brought this up then, because although people tell me they love the new positive happy me, they "can't" handle the full me.  It's like they are waiting for me to say, ok I'm not really like this... Guess what, I am.  Taking the time to say thank you to those above, is not a bad way to start the day.  It certainly beats the way I used to get up feeling.

Waking up this morning feeling crummy still, it saddens me to miss Spiritual Love again, however it is so intimate... I would not want to infect anyone.  Although this is something my children and I say every night after "Now I lay..." please keep in mind Mackenzie is the one who leads it.. I want to start my day with it.

Please keep Mommy, Mackenzie, Jordan, Daddy, all of our friends, all of our family, all those who are traveling (keep them safe), all those who are sick (please help them to feel better), all those looking for work (please guide them), PM and her family, PA and his family, and all of our animals in your Heavenly grace.
Amen
May you feel the love of our Lord and work at wondrous Wednesday!

8.21.12 Evening

As I sit here sniffling, I think about how awesome everyone is! So many people said a prayer for Timmy and he is home and feeling alright.  Thank you all!  Nothing too long tonight, something is up with my laptop an well, let's just say... I cannot type too well on my phone!!! Lol Today was a tremendous Tuesday, an we have our Lord to thank for that!  Wishing that you welcome the wondrous Wednesday into your world!!!

8.21.12 Morning

Good morning, it is Timmy's tremendous Tuesday!
Dear Heavenly Father,
In all your goodness, we ask that you watch over those who will provide Timmy with some relief.  Please watch over them, Timmy and his family as they wait patiently.  May everyone find the relief they seek and take time to treat today as a Tremendous Tuesday.
Amen

8.20.12 Evening

I want to start by saying thank you to everyone who reads my blog and thank you to those who send me texts or emails to tell me what you think... REALLY it feels good to hear what people think... good or bad.. Apparently last night's blog was a keeper.. Some days I feel even more blessed because there are things that make writing this blog even easier...I am grateful for what I am learning from PM and grateful for the opportunity to talk about my friend and what his family is living with after the loss of their son....  

A friend's son is having another procedure in his young (6yrs) life.  He and his family live with the daily needs of a child with Periventricular Leukomalacia and Cerebral Palsy.  8 months ago, he had a muscle lengthening procedure, tomorrow he will go in for another Botox procedure to help reduce the pain he feels.  My friend Meghan (I have known since high school is amazing), posted this poster on her page and is an inspiration to us all....  I ask that you pray for Timmy and his family.


We talk about asking God for things and wonder if we are heard. 

1  Hear my cry O God;
       listen to my prayer.
2  From the end of the earth I call to you,
       when my heart is faint.

You know that feeling, (I do not like this feeling) when you're sick and you blow your nose then lose your hearing... I sit here (right now) with a hollow sound around me and it made me stop and think, do people think because (they think) they don't get answers, that perhaps sometimes all the cries for help hollow out the sounds in God's ears?  Perhaps it's not a matter of whether or not we are heard, but whether or not we have shown our willingness to do for ourselves....

    Lead me to the rock
        that is higher than I;
 3  for you are my refuge,
        a strong tower against the enemy.

In order to provide us with answers, we need to SHOW our Faith and Trust...

  8  So I will always sing praises to your name,
        as I pay my vows day after day.
-PSALM 61

Wishing you a Tremendous Tuesday and that tomorrow you thank God for your ability to walk without pain and remember Timmy in your prayers.

8.20.12 Morning

As the morning light begins to peak through the blinds, I say a prayer to our Heavenly Father to help me to  live today in a way that He wants me to live and glorifies His name. Please bless my friend as she celebrates her birthday with all those who love her. Also, please keep my sister safe as she travels again.  You are great and merciful, please help us to be how you wish.- May we all make today a marvelous Monday!
Amen

8.19.12 Evening

Today a friend said to me that "You will be able to do it..." because I am a strong woman and when I replied back, thank you.  She said "Well... I don't know many who could endure what you have"  I replied that I have not endured anything compared to what I read last night (PM Sermon) and that there are people all around who have endured far greater in their young lives. I went on to remind her of what she endured in a short period of time and how she was a remarkably strong woman.   After these text messages, I went on facebook and was immediately stopped in my tracks reminding me what today was.

Today is a day for HOPE "A day to spread awareness against pregnancy loss, infant loss and still birth.   Today, please take a moment to remember those babies gone too soon and their families."-AV
I have family and many friends (including the one I spoke of above) whom had endured the loss of an unborn child and my heart broke for each of them as they tried again.  But it is the story of friend and classmate that reminds me daily for over a year now just how precious life is.  What they have endured daily is heart breaking and an inspiration.

Yesterday I posted this: "She wonders why the Holocaust happened… but affirms God’s love and power and goodness.  She has learned to live with the unsolved mystery of suffering, and to glorify God"  (PM 8.18) This could be said for those who have lost their children.  We wonder why the loss happened.... and live with the unsolved mystery of suffering and the need to glorify God. 

¹⁸The LORD is near to the brokenhearted
and saves the crushed in spirit.
 -PSALM 34

  

In memory of Cullen Steiner Veals. Lived 5 hrs, died from Twin to Twin Transfusion Syndrome. Your entire family especially mom, dad, sisters and twin brother, Grady miss you terribly, but know that you are now their superhero Angel watching out for them all.

May all the Angels look down and guide us through the days.  For tomorrow shall be a Marvelous Monday. 

8.19.12 Morning

My alarm would be going off shortly, instead the sounds of both a barking and regular cough and "mommy where's my nite nite," have me up so early.  The fire and pain make me want to remain silent (I know that in itself is a miracle).  Today is Spectacular Spiritual Sunday, I am dissapointed that we are not well enough to go Worship in our community.  This is the third Sunday, since Feb. I am missing and the first one that I am not away.  I understand the importance of getting well, and not passing along germs.  I will pray for forgiveness and know that God will forgive us for our absence.  I know this because, we understand the importance of being in our Faith Community and glorifying God, receiving the body and blood of our Lord, Jesus Christ and welcome the Holy Spirit to help us to feel better and to become better people! As you awaken what will you do today? Will you keep this Sabbath Holy? Will you find a reason you feel is better than what is offered to you unconditionally? How will you stop and sacrifice in order for today to be a Spectacular Spiritual Sunday?

8.18.12 Evening

I decided to pick a picture of a Cross necklace for two reasons, it was a way of "saving a seed" for one and a connection to my children on Monday.  I have not worn a cross in many years, but on Monday, I went to my jewelery box and took out the Cross both of my children wore during their Baptisms.  I wore it as I ended the chapter in my life...
I am trying to come up with a polite way of saying something.... I know that just saying it is my style.. but I am trying to remember not to say words that hurt.  Not sure I can avoid it, There are some ignorant people whom I have heard say that the Holocaust did not exist. Well after reading the most powerful Sermon to date... I would love to tell all the ignorant people that I have heard more horrifying stories to prove it then any "facts" that disprove it.  With that being said, The story spoken in this weekend's Sermon is not only one of personal strength but of FAITH.  "She wonders why the Holocaust happened… but affirms God’s love and power and goodness.  She has learned to live with the unsolved mystery of suffering, and to glorify God..." (PM 8.18) To live with that Faith with a lifetime of tragedy is not only inspiring, it is a wake up call for those of us who have been given things that many times we feel we cannot deal with.  I used to blame and question, instead of accepting and believing. 
I was told to keep my Bible handy while I read this Sermon as the story goes hand in hand with PSALM 34.  I have NOT been able to open a Bible and read it until tonight.  (I have read the children's bible stories, but not read the Bible)  Partly, I have not,  because I have not had one I could visually see and then there is the never really  able to read and comprehend it part.  I'm not ashamed to say that anymore... I am opening my ears to listening to more from the heart and less from the ears... So much more is understandable. 
It saddens me to think I will not hear this Sermon in person, (keeping the family home in bed) but am grateful that it was sent to me, especially as a reminder to be thankful for we have been given the opportunity to glorify God, and accept all else.  Wishing you a super Saturday and that tomorrow morning when you awaken in the morning light, it is a Spectacular Spiritual Sunday

8.18.12 Morning

Please let the sore throat I have not be strep!  As I just told my son, I too shall go back to bed.  But before I do, I will thank the Heavenly Father for gracing us with this day.  Wishing you all a Super Saturday!!

8.17.12 Evening

As I sit here and look at my reflection on the computer screen I think about all that happened this week.  How the week started and how it ended were directly related to each other.   This week I made it through a lot and that is because "I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me" *I started today working on how to relinquish the things that I cannot control and allow myself to have the FAITH that it takes to "let go and let God" ... I spent time today with a dear friend and tried to express to him the importance of both of those quotes.  Remember when you ask for things, it may come, just not in a way that you expected. Doesn't mean your prayers weren't answered.   As we go through our life good and bad times, we need to keep the FAITH and always show God we believe. 
*PM

8.17.12 Morning

As I rushed to the doctor this morning, I thought about taking time to let things go... Some say to me, "give it to God" I was praying for the strength and understanding to do that when an email came from PM, saying the exact same message!!! Now, I sit at the pharmacy for the second day after the fourth doctor's apt in two days, and I think how blessed I am that my children have the opportunity to see doctors and receive medication.  So many children are not given that same advantage.  I am also thankful its nothing serious, that both children will be fine, as I know all too well so many children are suffering and will not recover.  I thank God for blessing my family and keeping us safe. Today is a fabulous Friday find your way to it!

8.16.12 Evening

Today has been a hectic day, and honestly right now, I am definitely having a "I want my mom" moment. Yet, I am still stopping to say, THANK YOU for allowing me to try to live in a way that will glorify you, Lord.  Traveling down many roads today, I thought about the journey in which I have released myself into.  The journey of Faith.  I asked this morning if you could blindly believe.  I admire those who live without out a sense or two.  I learned in one of the greatest classes (LL) that when there is a loss of a sense, the other senses become heightened.  Relating that back to my life, I have experienced loss, and I must say my sense of faith is increasing.  I am more than happy to live my life "Blessed by God the Father, chosen in Christ, imbued with the Holy Spirit’s power" (PM 5.14)  Wishing you a Fabulous Friday.

8.16.12 Morning

Good Morning! Thankful Thursday stands waiting to hear, how will you live today? I was reminded last night to not "underestimate the Lord's ability to do [abundantly far more than we can ask or imagine...]' For me this was a gentle reminder not to worry so much about what Is to come.  So I throw out for your thought, if you were dared to live today blindly in a way that would allow each of us to embrace and accept what our Lord has in store for us, woukd you accept it? After all isnt thst what having Faith is all about?  I am thankful for this reminder and for the avenue in which I have to express my thoughts. Wishing the same for you.

8.15.12 Evening

As today comes to an end, we do need to remember that once we have done something, we cannot take it back.  How did you make today a wonderful Wednesday? Were you a blessing? Were you a friend? Did you encourage someone? Did you stop to care? Most importantly did you watch what and how you said things? In the scheme of life, these are the important things.
A dear friend sent me something that I received on Monday afternoon.  There was an instruction that I am to do something for myself with it.  This concept has always been difficult, but I believe signing up for fall book club not only fits the instructions, it will be something for me on a weekly basis.  I am grateful to MS for the gift and PM for the encouragement to make it work.  Enjoy the rest of this wonderful Wednesday as tthankful Thursday is tapping on the table...

8.15.12 Morning

Good morning, wonderful Wednesday woke me up to welcome another glorious day.  Thank you God for giving me the opportunity to be a better person today.  I will try harder to live in a way that glorifies you.  Time to get moving to begin my day receiving Spiritual Peace, love, and forgiveness!  Wishing you a wonderful Wednesday!!!

8.14.12 Evening

As I sat down to begin this... I received a phone call.... I thought it was news about something I had been waiting to hear about... it WAS NOT.... Please God forgive me for yelling and hanging up on the person....(I understand it is the person's job) but really how many times do I have to say the same thing????  Please God give me the patience I so desperately need....  I am so grateful that I bit my tongue and did not say what was really on mind... (some of that Sermon stuck in my head)....Tomorrow will be Wonderful Wednesday.... If I am blessed enough to wake in the morning, I will go and ask for forgiveness and receive spiritual love and peace.....  Have a terrific Tuesday night...

8.14.12 Morning

Good Morning, teaching Tuesday is tapping its toes inpatiently for you to start the day! Who will you teach a lesson, not in a mean spirited way but in a helpful way? As I begin this day, I know that I can offer my guidance and support to new youth in my program.  When the work day is done, I know I will then have learned something myself and then will have the opportunity to reflect on such lessons.     When you think about what you have done, its almost certain you will find something special for you to know.  Wishing you a terrific teaching Tuesday!! I am thanking God for giving me the opportunity to be here today to help someone else, how about you?

8.13.12 Evening

OK those who know me really well know my General Hospital obsession/connection (with my mom) and understand how I use it to escape from reality sometimes... Can't escape (today's episode is where a couple decides to get divorced). And people say things do not happen for a reason.. REALLY? I completely believe that things do happen and that there is a higher being placing us in specific moments to learn a lesson!  
This storyline is finished, it's now time to move on with my new script in hand.  So many people told me over the last few months, you may not feel anything now, but on that day you will. I felt things, but not what people told me I would. I had my moments last night where I questioned how I got here and what my mom would say. Before you ask, I couldn't come up with anything. It's such a foreign concept to think what my mom would say or do for me at this point in my life. I am not saying she would not have, I just can't even imagine it. I appreciate the texts and emails and the support I felt all the love,  really you are all wonderful... THANK YOU.... most of all I thank God, for providing me with what I needed to get through it. 
When I woke up this morning I thanked our Heavenly Father for sending me his daughter to help me through today... Pastor Mary knew exactly what I needed at every moment!  She tried to get me to express my feelings.  She knew when to be silent, when to speak and exactly what to say, (when to tell a joke or share a memory or a story)  or when just to listen, LOL she even knew I probably hadn't eaten and then only pushed for me to eat just a little.  THANK YOU so much not only for this morning (and brunch) but for being that person who makes IT all make sense.  She said she tries, but really she does... I dare anyone to read this and tell me it doesn't make you want to be a better person? http://www.holytrinity-elca.org/index.php/articles/sermons/48-august-11-12-2012
Perhaps DARE is the wrong word.. because if it doesn't make you want to be a better person, I am not sure I really want to know.. lol Have a a great rest of the night and tomorrow morning Take the time to teach two people something... after all it's Teaching Tuesday...

8.13.12 Morning

Good morning, Marvelous Monday made its way here.  I wish you a day filled with miracles and marvelous things, may you make someone else smile today.  
Dear Heavenly Father,  as I begin this day, please help me to live in a way that glorifies you while giving me the strength and courage to accept the feelings and move on.  I thank you for sending me real friends and the support from your daughter, PM.  I ask that you bless all those in my life and all those who need your love more.
Amen

8.12.12 Evening

As I sit here in complete silence, I reflect on what the future holds... Nobody but God really knows.  I know what the immediate week may bring, but not how I or anyone else will react from the events.  I wish to live my life in a manner that will obey God.  I will watch what I say and what I do more as I wish the same for my children. I do understand, I will help them along by setting a better example.  I will also try to remember when I am losing my patience, to ask myself, is this something that God would be so upset about? As so eloquently explained today by PM.  Thank you for that gentle reminder. 
As this week begins, I am trying to be more courageous.  I am having a mom moment.  I am thinking of what my mom would say and if she were here what she would do.  I am grateful that I won't be alone, THANK YOU for saying yes.

8.12.12 morning

Good morning! Spectacular Spiritual Sunday saved the weekend!! Cannot imagine a greater way to end a weekend and begin the week than going to sing the Lord's praises.  Sounds like a beautiful reason to get out of bed.  Wishing you a spectacular spititual Sunday!

8.11.12 Evening

Such a simple prayer was recited today by so many, and I am so grateful that it was.  I am so grateful that St. Anthony helped me to find a missing item... What a scary thought to think I lost something worth so much. 
We just got home from a wonderful time at our friends' Annual Backyard Bash... What a lovely time.  Thank you for inviting us.  As I sit here and relax, I am re watching the latest episode of PERCEPTION (fantastic TNT show)  This episode happened to revolve around religious beliefs.  I must say not that long ago, I felt much like the Scientist (Eric McCormick) hard to believe. .. It was hard for me to release my pain, fear and misguided blame over things that happened and welcome the Lord's grace and love into my life.  I am so grateful that when I was ready, I was welcomed and forgiven.  After all the presence of the Holy Spirit makes us "Holy and Blameless" to understand what this means, you could ask PM, or read this Sermon... http://www.holytrinity-elca.org/index.php/articles/sermons/40-qholy-and-blameless-who-usq  It's amazing how things become so clear through her.  She is a wonderful gift given to so many to help facilitate our relationship with God.  As you say good night to this Super Saturday.... Spend some sweet moments realizing tomorrow is a blessing providing us with the chance to have a Spectacular Spiritual Sunday.  Thank you Alison, for this special photo taken in DOWNTOWN DISNEY... (if things were different the traveling families would be there right now)... What a wonderful way of saying the alphabet....

8.11.12 Morning

Good morning, today is a very special day.  Today is my dear friend, Peggy's birthday.  God gave us a very special person, the day she was born. Several years ago, I spent today with her and helped to make her feel special.  I couldnt stay this year,  but was able to help make her day even from very far away.  I am grateful to have that chance to make her feel as special as she is!! That is what friendship is all about.  Today let's fulfill God's wish that we treat others as we wish to be treated.  Deep down how do you want to feel?  It is a super Saturday here in NJ, looking forward to a lovely BBQ with friends later.  What a beautiful way to spend a Saturday afternoon and evening.  Wishing that a smile starts your day as you make this a super Saturday!

8.10.12 Evening

As I arrive back home after more school shopping, I am grateful to have such amazing friends... I am also still so excited, I passed my Civil Service test... YES... I am excited and will be patient to hear... (up to a year it's good for).....I am grateful for the kindness of those in our lives.  I appreciate the love and the support!!!! It really was a relaxing week, and a week of accomplishment.. I really did do it!!! I drove to NC and back (through a constant RAIN storm)... I am so happy that I can say I did it.  "I'm a grown up now!"..lol   Another thing off the bucket list... :-) Of course I forgot to get magnets on my way there and then Mackenzie actually slept past where to get them on the way home... HMMM time to plan the next trip??lol  Seriously, as I settle back in to reality I am going to try to remember the couple great nights of being able to do NOTHING and have another adult sitting next to me.  It's amazing how I took that for granted for years.  I wish you the grace and understanding that comes from our Lord and that when you have the opportunity to have a conversation with an adult, you realize what a gift it is.  Make the rest of this Friday, FABULOUS.....

8.10.12 Morning

Good Morning, Thank God it's Friday. To wake up and be given the chance to do something good is an amazing gift, so many of us take it for granted.  Perhaps today find someone in need and do something for them.  At work, give that person you have the least amount of patience for an extra five minutes. Call that family member that you would rather not speak to and actually listen?  Instead of going out for happy hour, donate what you would spend to the food bank? There are many things you could do, what will you do? As I lay here waiting for the kids to get up, I will continue to think of ways that I could help.  The last "leg" of the trip will happen in a few hours.  It will be great to see those we love and tell them how much they mean to us and thank you for all the encouragement that we have received.  After all, I plan to make today a fabulous Friday, hope you do as well.

8.9.12 Evening

One should never underestimate the power of prayer.  I have so many people kind enough to keep me in their prayers and our Gracious Lord has provided me with so much.  This week has been such a blessing and I am so grateful.  Tonight as I was still dealing with the sadness of leaving my friend my daughter got even more upset saying goodbye to her aunt.  As sad as it is,  it is a wonderful feeling to know how much my daughter loves those in her life.  it is a precious reminder to tell those who are special to us, just how much we care for them.  Tomorrow morning as I awaken in the morning light, I will say an extra prayer of thanks for providing me with this much needed break and allowing me to spend each day with people I love.  As I prepare for Monday, I am reminded how the story continues because you read on, if you keep reading the same chapter, you never know how the book ends.  Wishing you a wonderful night and that when you wake up and say TGIF.... you actually mean to say thank you.

8.9.12 Morning

Good Morning, we have been blessed to wake up and have been given the opportunity to be thankful.  Today is Thankful Thursday!!!!! I am so thankful to my dear friend for the wonderful time and the unbelievable hospitality.... THANK YOU so much, we had a wonderful time and appreciate all the hospitality.   As I pack the car up and get ready to leave NC, I am sad to say SO LONG to my dear friend.  It was such an amazing few days..... Thank you so much... I love you....

8.8.12 Evening

As I sit here on my final evening in NC during my August 2012 getaway , I reflect on how WONDERFUL it has been.  My friends have helped me so much through all the craziness, it is so great to just sit and relax... It is also nice to force my friend to do the same.  Life is busy for so many, but sometimes you just have to do NOTHING... it's what helps you recharge your battery for the hamster wheel.  You may feel like you are always running and never get off, but what you have to remember is that wheel only goes if you continue to run in that direction.  perhaps CHANGE your direction or you could choose to let the wheel knock you around a little and then it will STOP on it's own.. but if you continue to run in the circle you only have yourself to look at when it's crazy.   A VERY wise friend has said "you have two choices change your situation or change your attitude".  LIFE is all about choices... I have made choices that though are difficult, and though have some major consequences, I made them, because staying wasn't in the best interest for everyone involved.  As I relax and enjoy this night I thank my dear sweet friend for such a wonderful night and I am so grateful to those who helped encourage me to do this... especially to God who has given me so much, thank you.  Wishing everyone a wonderful Wednesday night and wishing you that tomorrow is a thankful Thursday.

8.8.12 Morning

Good Morning, Gracious God has woken you up to wave hello to a wonderful Wednesday.  When you look out the window what do you see? Here is in NC, it's rainy, The grass and plants are receiving nourishment although it may alter your plans  think of the beauty that will come. 
Today is the "last" day we will be with my friend and although it will be sad to go in the morning, I have cherished this time and will be grateful for the days we had.  It has been a wonderful getaway and I am so appreciative for this opportunity. 
As you go forward in your day, walk and wave to those you don't know.... Wish them a wonderful Wednesday. 

8.7.12 Evening

A friend just text'd me asking if we were having fun.. my response YES!!!!!! the kids are being great and I am able to RELAX!!!! It is so amazing.. this is the first time (in MANY years) that I can say while being "away" that I am actually relaxed.  The kids ARE really being great and I am so proud of them.  Today we went to the pool and although the weather interrupted.. the kids had a blast going inside and swimming in the hot tub and then the indoor pool... Once the thunder stopped, they went back out and swam in the rain and got to face time (video chat) with their Aunt Emmy (in Berlin)..  Here is a picture of my dear friend, Peggy and the kids chillaxin by the pool... We are really having a GREAT time... We are so blessed.  As I sit here an incident happened that reminds me that I must have patience with those who sometimes do things that we do not like... and though I do not like what they do I have to remember that I cannot control them or their actions, I can only assist my children and control how I react to it.  So tonight I will thank God for the patience that is needed and for the wonderful hospitality that my friend has shown us... it's going by so quick....Tomorrow morning when I awaken in the morning light I will welcome wonderful Wednesday and wave to those who need a smile... What will you do to make it wonderful?

8.7.12 Morning

Good morning, Tuesday is here.  The sun is taking a break for the rain is needed.  Although no sun, it is still a beautiful day!!! We woke up.  I woke up in my friend's lovely home and my children are still asleep, peace!!!!! What will you teach someone to make today tremendous Tuesday? Take the time, for when we teach others something, we learn as well.

8.6.12 Evening

Good evening from beautiful NC!!!!! It's always great to have that feeling of being on vacation... and does not hurt to have a mudslide in hand..... It was definitely a journey to get here... my Tom Tom (six months old) does not have the most up to date streets... BUT MY IPHONE does...one point for the IPHONE.... Seven months ago, A. I wouldn't have driven here myself B. When the gps wouldn't work, I would have probably broken down in tears and asked someone else what I should do...Instead I took a deep breath and pulled out my iphone... realized I could get it on it... and then went back to the gps and put in any street I could in the town....  then my great Navigator, Jordan assisted using my phone once we got around town... 
It was a VERY LONG day in the car... we left around 9, with one gas stop and two potty breaks, we finally got here 3:45.... It is a wonderful feeling to be at my friend's house... so good to be here!!!! I owe my friend such a HUGE thank you for opening your home up to us... YOU ARE AMAZING and so sweet....it's like we just saw each other last night... Funny thing is we are both sitting here while Mackenzie watches a BARBIE (GAG ME) movie.... I on my laptop and her on her phone..lol can't wait for  the kids to go to sleep so the girl time can start.. I am so blessed and I know it.... I have been given a true gift not only in friendship but in this day and all that I have... Thanking God for all that I have... The good and the bad.  I understand they go hand and hand.   Make the rest of tonight Marvelous... and as you awaken on Tremendous Tuesday take time to teach someone something.....

8.6.12 Morning

You know that feeling that someone is staring at you so you wake up? (Parents have experienced this many times!!!) I awoken to a little smile on my daughter's face and the sounds of birds chirping all around. I knew it was still early so I encouraged her to go back to sleep, and by some small miracle she did... I was able to lay and just listen peacefully to the birds (and answer texts and emails) for another forty-five minutes before my sweet boy emerged from his spot on the couch.  I knew it was time for me to get out of bed and once again he is reading over my shoulder.  Perhaps now is the time I should mention that we leave for NC this morning and my gps said six hours not five...lol hmm little reaction. 
Although the sun is not shinning bright, we have been given the light to guide us to my friends.  It has been a year and a half since I last saw her.  It will be wonderful for her and I to be able to relax and allow the kids to have fun.  I am so blessed to have this opportunity.  So many people encouraged this trip and expressed how much I need to just let go and relax, YOU were all right and I am, THANK YOU for always being there and providing the support and encouragement that I need.
As I embark on this next leg of the journey, I will take with me the positive attitude that I can do this. After all, life is the journey and although I do not know the exact route, I do know that "the sign of God is we will be led where we did not plan to go" so no matter what I will make it to my sweet friend's house and learn so much more from God in this journey.  How will you make today a Marvelous Monday?

8.5.12 Evening

As I pack up my bags (one for the week ahead, the others to go back to NJ) I think about the lovely day we had.  What an amazing way to express my gratitude to above then to begin the Sabbath day in worship (even while away).  We went to a lovely Church today... the kids and I were a little nervous (the entire way there, Mackenzie kept asking if Pastor Mary or Pastor Arnie or Robin, or Thomas, WILL ANY OF MY FRIENDS BE HERE?) until we arrived to see the Pastor and several teenagers dancing in front of the congregation. Mackenzie noticed right away no kneelers... (she usually sits on the kneeler to write in her books)... "Mommy we don't have to kneel here?!" I responded we shall see... Jordan liked the hanging screen (he didn't have to follow in the book).  I enjoyed the tone, much like what we experience at HT... The youth had just come back from the youth summit and they showed videos and the Pastor talked about it briefly stating the youth would all like to talk next week.  After a few things, the Pastor then invited the kids to go upfront (much like PM), both of mine stayed with me though. He then took a beach bucket that they titled message in a can... a child takes the bucket home and brings it back the following week with three items in it.. Then the Pastor finds meaning and the kids (and adults) love it.  This week there was a green matchbox truck, a silver car and dinosaur.... VERY cute.. Although the service was an hour and a half (JORDAN kept checking to make sure I knew) Jordan gave it 5 out of 5 stars because they give the kids (A SINGLE) goldfish with their blessing... hysterical how my children are obsessed with getting food.  I was grateful to receive Spiritual peace, communion with Lord Jesus, receive God's grace and forgiveness and allow the Holy Spirit into my "gummysack".
We then came home had lunch and while Mackenzie took a nice nap, Jordan and I put up my sister's gazebo.  (She HATES doing it: and I thought it would be nice for her to have when she gets home.  It was so calm and still until we raised it, then the wind started blowing and I was nervous it was going to snap... got it ALMOST up and lost my helper to the ice cream truck!!!!! I couldn't say no, he was a great help and it was REALLY hot... He ran and got his wallet (waking his sister up) he even bought her and I each ice cream... So sweet, reminded me of living in Cranford and us running to the truck ourselves to get what we wanted.. (I could see the entire thing but was stuck literally holding up my end of the gazebo until they were done eating).  As soon as it was secure and I ate my melted ice cream :-), we left for the county water park to meet friends of my sisters.  The kids all enjoyed playing together and my baby went under water, SEVERAL times... it was AWESOME... I even brought my iphone in to video her doing it.  (Mackenzie does not like to get her face wet, let alone put it under the water!!!) It was REALLY refreshing and so much fun... I wish NJ had a place like this... an affordable fun place.... we got home in time for me to finish putting the screen on the gazebo before the rain came... dinner, laundry and a game of knock hockey in which MACKENZIE was beating Jordan and declared, "we are even better than Aunt Emmy..."  I had to record it and post it, (last time we were here, NONE of us scored against her she beat each of us).  Today was just a GREAT relaxing day.  I am so grateful for this opportunity.  I know this is long and I am sorry for anyone new reading... but those who know me well know how much a day like today was REALLY needed.  Tomorrow as I awaken in the Lord's morning light, I will marvel at another Marvelous Monday and I will once again recite the prayer sent to me from Pastor Mary and head out for another long car ride, with an even greater end result.... to see a dear friend and enjoy a few more days hopefully like today... May the rest of this super spiritual Sunday provide you with some smiles...

8.5.12 Morning

"Now I fold my hands and say, thank you God for my breakfast today"... Such a simple prayer, yet sounds so cute coming out of my daughter's mouth.  Good morning!!! Today is a super spiritual Sunday indeed.. I was able to fall back asleep for a bit and when I woke up again.. there was an email with today's Sermon from PM... I have not read the Sermon as the title kind of made me think I should after I eat breakfast :-)
As I sit and made french toast for the kids, I looked out the windows and saw all the beauty that is out there.  The lovely shades of green and brown all around my sister's backyard is just so peaceful.  In the sky I see lots of birds flying through a beautiful shade of blue mixed with white.
It is very relaxing to look at the peace and as I looked, I noticed what would make someone stop and look at all around... that hammock...  Time to go eat and then get ready to receive God's grace.  Until Later, have a super spiritual Sunday.

8.4.12 Evening

Thanks to the Grace of God, we arrived safe and sound.  Good Evening from Va. As I sit here in a VERY QUIET house, I reflect on the journey that brought me here.  There is the mental and then the physical journey.  Mentally-so much has happened especially in the last six months that I am ready to let go.  Taking chances and embracing new possibilities is scary but empowering.  I packed my car with as many that would fit and I drove them to DC/Va..  For some that may seem like a little thing, but for someone with a fear of driving others... this was a BIG deal.  Prayer helped me over come this obstacle... 
The children and I are bummed we will not be in our church community tomorrow to hear another great Sermon from PM and to welcome PA back. I did some research and found a Church to attend tomorrow morning.  For those of you who know Mackenzie does the best she can, but her behavior in church is not always that great,  but listening to PM, "it's enough to show up".    We are on vacation, but God is not. Going somewhere new, much less with a child who may or may not behave is terrifying to me.  However, I am going outside my "comfort zone" as we are taught, I could simply pray, but I would prefer to put myself right "...in the path of oncoming grace"  I wish you all a PEACEFUL Saturday night and may tomorrow morning bring you as much grace as you require on Super Spiritual Sunday.

8.4.12 Morning

Good Mornong! Spectacular Saturday is smiling at you.  Starting my day with a special thank you for  giving me this day, the strength, and the opportunity to do this- thank you Lord.  Time to get moving, wishing you each a spectacular Saturday :-)

8.3.12 Evening

As I finish packing up the bags and loading the car, I think about what lies ahead.  There is a lot that I will overcome just by taking this one road trip.  Although this week, I have wavered, I stopped to think about what I heard this weekend... lucky for me, (and anyone else who is interested) Pastor Mary posted her Sermon...  http://www.holytrinity-elca.org/index.php/articles/sermons/43-rooted-and-grounded-in-love - I will allow the Holy Spirit into my sack, and knock out A LOT of the garbage....amd as I was instructed... I thank the Holy Spirit, as this Sermon is VERY HELPFUL!!!
As this night comes to an end, I am grateful for the opportunity to help friends. I am also so ecstatic to see another dear friend... Wishing as you finish this Fabulous Friday.... tomorrow morning, you have spectacular Saturday....

8.3.12 Morning

Good Morning, Fabulous Friday has found its way here!  Friends are on their way to have a wonderful time at Twin weekend.  Wishing them a safe and fun trip :-)  I am thanking God for giving me this day.  It will be a fabulous day!

8.2.12 Evening

Today was most definitely THANKFUL THURSDAY!! I am extremely grateful for having the courage to ask (with a little encouragement) and for someone saying yes!! THANK YOU, both! Wishing you all a wonderful Thursday night and that tomorrow morning when you wake up and say Thank God it's Friday.. you mean the words not just the meaning.  I am thankful God has given us each other and that each of you are in my life.  I know how blessed I am. 

8.2.12 Morning

Thinking that today is a perfect time to say Thank you!!! Thank God its Thursday!! Thank you for giving me the chance to appreciate all around me.  The sun is providing light, not too bright so that you may open your eyes and see what you need to explore.  Two more work days and I am grateful this week is taking its time, I am in no rush to move it along.  Like a great dessert, I am savoring every minute of it.  Today what are you thankful for?

8.1.12 Evening

This morning's Sermon touched on not forgetting that God is in the business of Miracles.  Yesterday... YES, yesterday I asked if something would be given a date...at least one of the many things hanging in limbo... I had to "release" the control of it and accept that I have done everything asked of me.... and that I will receive something when I do.  Today I walked in the door and found an envelope.  One of the dates has been set, a date I am available, one of the ten pound weights is feeling like a two pound-er. I am so grateful for this sign... Things are going somewhere.. Thank you, God and thank you PM for helping me to release some of the control.  Today has been wondrous Wednesday indeed... How about for you?  Tomorrow as I start my Thursday I will be extra Thankful. :)

8.1.12 Morning

Good Morning, Wondrous Wednesday walking on in.  The Lord has given us this day, for me I will go praise and be thankful.  It is time to get ready for Peace.  I wish you wake up waving to the wondrous Wednesday!