No matter what is going on, I worry. Many a nights I worry it is too much and that they deserve better.
5: Fear and trembling come upon me,
and horror overwhelms me. -Psalm 55
It is then that I try, try to imagine just how she did it. It is a foreign concept as if sometimes it never happened. Yes, there were years, though I barely recall. I look up and ask for help.
1. To you I lift up my eyes,
O you who are enthroned in the heavens!
2. As the eyes of servants
look to the hand of their master,
as the eyes of a maid
to the hand of her mistress,
so our eyes look to the Lord our God,
until he has mercy upon us. -Psalm 123
A piece of emptiness will always exist, today a wonderful woman said "it's like you finally found what you had been looking for". I have in some regard. I thought long and hard about the journey that has led me to where I am today...
"The sign of God is that we will be led where we did not plan to go" -PM
So I went to CCD as a child, I went face to face with a nun (in PA), I made my Confirmation as a senior in HS, I went to a Catholic College, I took MANY religion classes instead of art history and other electives... There was always a desire... just never really felt like it was the right fit for me... The people always made it special..... but now everything about it makes sense and brings real comfort.
I am so grateful for those things in my life that I worry about, most of them brought me along this journey. I do understand that now I can begin to let God take some of the worry from me.... Perhaps I can....
I just agreed to cover for someone who works on the beach... so tomorrow I shall sit at the beach 9-6.... For most that is a DREAM job... for someone as fair as I... it's going to be work..to keep the SUN off of me... Tomorrow as Thankful Thursday taps its toes, take time to thank those that touched your life... I will begin... THANK YOU :-)
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