9.30.12

"I will pray that you continue to have faith that God is in control and has wonderful plans for you.  Things may not seem clear now, but praying they will be very soon...."  - AM , Thank you!!
Dear Heavenly Father,
Please accept this prayer as a compliment of your greatness.  In all that you do,  I have faith and I do accept that I will be led where I did not plan to go.  Please keep Sister Pat, Sister Helen, Peggy, Robin, Aunt Lorraine, Kelly, Ellen, Bob, Kenny Carol and my friend who will find out what her medical path will be tomorrow, in your healing hands and help them to heal. - Amen
I can't really say anything more tonight.. except thank you to everyone..

9.29.12

As this day comes to an end, I spent the day trying to prepare for how I will feel.  Many emotions have come and gone this week and I understand many more will come in the coming week.  I am even more worried about my friends who are dealing with medical issues and ask that everyone keep them in their thoughts and prayers....
Dear Heavenly Father,

We know how great you are  As we lay our heads down tonight please keep, Sister Pat, Sister Helen, Peggy, Robin, Kelly, Aunt Lorraine, Ellen, Kenny, Carol, my friend who wishes to remain private and all those who are suffering.  

Amen
May tomorrow morning, we walk in the path that God has set for us and make it a Super Spiritual Sunday....

9.28.12

A dear friend told me today that after being "a single mom" for a week while her husband was away, she stopped and thought about me and wanted to tell me that she is in aw of me.  I am learning to take compliments, I said thank you, but to please stop as I was in tears.  Although she cannot fully understand it, she praised my decision to connect to HT and that it has defiantly been a great influence on me.  

As "it" comes close to an end, I remain grateful for the support and guidance.  I agree that the decision to open my heart to God was a wise choice.   Learning to do this with PM and following her advice and asking for guidance, have proven to be most beneficial in maneuvering through this journey.  Teaching my children to trust in God and keep their heart's open, is very important to me.

Dear Heavenly Father,

You are Amazing and Great!  We can only try to Glorify your name.  I ask that you look out for those in need.  Especially Sister Pat, Sister Helen, Peggy, Robin, Kelly, Aunt Lorraine, Ellen, Kenny, Carol, My friend who wishes to remain private and all those who are suffering.  

Amen

9.27.12

As it stands right now, I cannot do the "morning" blog from my phone... I will only work on an evening one until I can figure it out.
So many things going through my brain and I am trying so hard to process and move them on... I am so grateful that I am not alone.  as I was reminded today:
7 casting all your anxieties on him, because he cares for you.
10 And after you have suffered a little while, the God of all grace, who has called you to his eternal glory in Christ, will himself restore, confirm, strengthen, and establish you.
11 To him be the dominion forever and ever. Amen -1Peter 5

Today was a very sad day,  my sister is in pain and my heart breaks for her.  Her sweet adorable Jimmy (cat) was struck by a car and she found his lifeless body this morning.  Although she was not able to be with him during his final moments, he was not alone.  He was one of God's creatures.
For he has not despised or abhorred
     the affliction of the afflicted,
and he has not hidden his face from him,
     but has heard, when he cried to him.
-Psalm 22.24  

May Jimmy rest in peace and may tomorrow morning we all find fond memories to feel it will be a Fabulous Friday.

9.26.12 Evening

Today I awoken and thanked our Lord, for receiving the gift of life (surely the greatest gift of all).  This morning, I posted about how seeing someone as "down to Earth" is blessing.... My heart tugged as I heard someone get choked up as she told a heart-breaking story.  I laughed many times tonight as I heard our Pastor laugh at things that honestly was just what I needed to hear tonight.  This evening after an awesome dinner, I listened to many talk about how "we" make it through the difficult times and how we help those suffering around us.  In everything going on, hearing people say "i'm here" is a wonderful thing.  To also have someone who does not know "everything" but knows enough and can be objective is so helpful.  I am so grateful for EVERYONE in my life.  Yes, even those that sometimes I wish were not necessarily in my life, I am still grateful.  

Last Wednesday, I spoke about an awesome feeling after hearing a heart-warming story.  I knew PM sent my blog to the person.  She told me I would love this person... and of course PM is right.  This person came up to me after the meeting was over and spoke to me about my blog and the message and in the past when someone would say "I will pray for you" I would not handle it well... Now I am so honored and grateful.... 

It's almost midnight... may tomorrow you take the time to be thankful....

9.26.12 morning

I may have found a way around the "unable to do on my phone" after all, I am typing tight now!! Yay!! This morning a sweet friend has an interview and I pray it went well and will be the beginning of what she needs.
I love when people are real.  Even people who we regard as authority are real so its nice to hear things that bother them.  It is really a way of getting to know people.
Take the time to talk to someone and learn something new about them.  You would be surprised how something you do, may bother that person and vise versa!
Wouldnt it be a wondrous Wednesday if we take the time to care?!

9.25.12 Evening

Some days writing the blog seems so simple... others it's difficult for different reasons.  I am grateful for the good and the bad.  I accept the bad as a "life lesson"  I had to laugh today when I was asked if my life has always "been like this..." It has certainly never been dull to say the least.  The point of this is, although there are days I would prefer not to get out of bed, or would prefer to go back to bed.. . I am grateful to our Lord for giving me this life.  I continue to ask for the courage, strength and wisdom to navigate through it and to always remain in your guiding spirit.  Perhaps the greatest thing said to me today "Play it out, go ahead do the what if.. then let it go"... May all of us who need that extra hug receive it.  I am so grateful I made the "right choice" today and will remember tomorrow morning to continue to follow the path given to me.   May you find the path that is marked for you, and wake up to a wondrous Wednesday.

9.25.12 Morning

Today is Tremendous Tuesday.  This morning I started out the work day by being called into a staff meeting to discuss the recent events that plague the students in which I work with.  It is a very sad situation and it helps to remind me, no matter what I am going through, there is always someone else who could use their name whispered into God's ear more. 
Dear Heavenly Father,
Thank you for providing us with so many wonderful things around us and many opportunities to Glorify your name.  Please keep, Robin, Peggy, Bob, Kenny, Carol, Kelly, Allison, Jim and those who are in the reader's prayers, in your great hands. 
Amen

As you go through the rest of the day, may you find it tremendous and work toward a wondrous Wednesday.

9.24.12 Evening

I love back to school night... I enjoy the excitement in the teacher's eyes and it was fun to hear all about what this year will be like.  I hope your day was pleasant and that someone paid you a compliment.... I'm pretty sure I know everyone reading this... and well you are a fantastic person... Have a FANTASTIC night and may tomorrow be a tremendous Tuesday!!!!

9.24.12 Morning EHH ok afternoon

I'm sorry to say since my IPHONE upgraded last night.. I cannot start a new blog post on my phone... THAT IS HOW I DO MY morning post...  This morning was a rough start I woke up with a migraine and got sick...I took the day off, after that and taking some medicine, all is well... I even felt well enough (arm) to go help move some things... and another friend even let me help her today....
Today I received a really nice email complimenting me on a photograph I took... I miss taking pictures.. but it made me think about what we say to other people and how it affects them.  If you are mean to someone, they can take it in and allow it to ruin their day....However, when we pay someone a compliment that same person could smile and allow it to brighten their day.  Although it's the middle of the day, let's try to end this work day in this fashion... Pay people compliments just for the NICENESS of it... there is enough hate and sarcasm in the world we do not need it from people who are supposed to be our friends or co-workers. I will start, You, yes, you reading this... you are a very kind and intelligent person for taking the time to do this..  Did you smile?

9.23.12 Evening

I have officially made two crumbly apple pies from scratch...YAY!!!! The best was that the father of my children arrived to bring the kids home from their dinner when I was making it and he had many things to say.. most of which I could not repeat.. lol  Let's just say he wanted to know who was influencing me and how "she" got me to become domesticated... He couldn't even handle that I made the dough from scratch.. I smiled and said yup!  Pretty darn proud of myself... I know, I know all I did was follow directions... really if you do not know me, I REALLY should be on that show "Worst Cooks in America" ..
Today was an adventure.  Mackenzie was GOOD in Church... she kept telling sweet Betty not to talk... to which everyone around us kept laughing... I kept wanting to say "kettle calling.." She was even good when I went up to the teacher installation.  I only heard the kneeler bang back once (I am pretty sure PM heard and smiled, knowing it was Mackenzie..)  After coffee hour, I went up to meet my team partner...I am K-5 and special ed certified..... This experience has solidified I do not want to get middle school endorsements.... lol God Bless all those who "love" that age... really one hour of Sunday School and I know I made the right decision in K-5... (really I always wanted P-3)...lol I laughed afterwards when Mackenzie went and said goodbye to PM, I went over and said Oh I need a hug too!!! and I whispered what was I thinking? To which she replied, in the perfect tone, "it's only once a month?" lol And that's why I left laughing...
Thankful the JETS remembered how to play this week and pulled it out... :-)
Tomorrow as you awaken, make it a Marvelous Monday Morning...

9.23.12 Morning

In all that the Lord has provided us with, how do we honor Him? Today is Spectacular Spiritual Sunday, what are your plans? When you think of your loved ones, how do you give them support? Do you wait for them to ask, just do something, or do you ask how you help? Why do you do what you do? Think about it, do not do for something in return.  Do something for no reason at all.  The one thing anyone can do, is keep them in their prayers.  God is Great and has room for all prayers.  I am grateful Maia has returned home and send a prayer she will remain well for Rocco, Lisa, Phong, Karen, Dan, Al, and Mary were really worried.  I am also keeping Colleen, Jerry and the rest of their family in my prayers, as they deal with Brendan's passing.  May Allison receive the support she needs to return home to Jim, Stella, Georgia, and Grady, may their Angel, Cullen always watch over them all.  Please help Kelly, Joe, Peggy, Kenny, Carol, Bob, Bob, Ellen, and Robin in your Glorious hands Lord.  Time to get ready for Peace.
Amen

9.22.12 Evening

Well I did it...and I have NO idea how it tasted..lol we left before deserts went out..lol  As I type this my cousin just sent me a text that said she tried it and it was delicious... I do have enough stuff to make another one and might (after the kids fall asleep)!!!! My thoughts are with my friend R who could not go be with her daughter tonight... HUGS.

It was nice to meet family and friends (though really nice, kind of hard at the same time). The kids had such a nice time and had a lot of fun.  Marisa and Rich had a lot of cute things for the kids to do (ok us adults got in on the kids activities as well) and it was nice.   I was sorry to take the kids from having so much fun, but considering it's not even 8 and they are both in bed.... I would say it was def. necessary!!!! These kids are all cousins and enjoyed themselves... of course Jordan found some boys to play with, but they were not cousins.... lol

Perhaps the funniest was meeting my cousin, Chris and his family... he can't get over how much my aunt and I look alike (his mom) and that I look more like her daughter than he or sister look like her... apparently we even use the same number on our hair this month.... lol she took her glasses off tho.  We are all pretty close in age and would be great to actually begin to hang with cousins my age.

Thank you to Marissa and Rich for a lovely time,  thank you to Aunt Lorraine and everyone for helping to make us feel welcome and thank you to PM for not only the recipe but the encouragement to go outside the comfort zone to explore new things and people.

May tomorrow morning be a Spectacular Spiritual Sunday for everyone.

9.22.12 Morning

Ahh and so here it is the day I must follow a "special" recipe given to me by PM.. I have all the ingredients and am hopeful that it will turn out alright.. a little nervous about going to see many people we do not know.. but am excited for my children to meet more family.  May my two friends celebrating their birthday today enjoy their day with their family... May those who need an extra prayer feel God's hands upon them.... especially, Peggy, Lisa, Phong, Maia, Rocco, Mary, Al, Karen, Dan, Robin, Allison, Jim, Stella, Georgia, Cullen, Grady, Kelly, Bob, Bob, Kenny, Jerry, Brendan, Colleen, Ellen, Carol, Leslie, and Aunt Lorraine.  

9.21.12 Evening

Today was a tough day.  Many people I know are having a rough couple days and although I am keeping them in my prayers, I wish there were more I could do.  Please know I am keeping all of you in my thoughts and prayers.

Today I had some disappointing news HOWEVER, I accept that it's not meant to be this year and in the grand scheme of things, this is not something to be upset over.  

Tonight after a nice "fridge dinner" we took the kids to the boardwalk to "walk the boards".. somehow that meant the playground..lol It was a lovely way to "end the summer" and it's always fun with the Urban clan... (Missing A and R tho)... This was the Silly pose picture and I felt it really captures the true personality of each of these children.. FUN....   My children were double surprised not only did their dad come to say good night in person, they then were given sleep overs.. Mackenzie is at her friend's house and Jordan is here with his friend, (no not the girl in the picture). lol 

I am grateful for friendship, it really is a beautiful thing... to all my friends, I wish you know how much you mean to me... hope today was a fabulous Friday and that tomorrow as we awaken in the Lord's light, we stop and see what can be a super Saturday

9.21.12 Morning

As we awaken and Thank God for this Fabulous Friday, I am asking that we all take time to pray for those in need and those who are worried about them.  Please keep sweet little Maia, Rocco, Lisa, Phong,  Karen, Dan, Mary, Al, Peggy, Robin, Allison, Jim, Cullen, Grady, Georgia, Stella, Jerry, Brendan, Colleen, Kelly, Bob, Bob, Ellen, Kenny, Carol, and Aunt Lorraine.  May we all find comfort and strength in the Lord.
Amen

9.20.12 Evening

OK I know the spider is one of God's creatures, but really he was living in my office... I believe when the lovely creatures (can you hear my sarcasm?) enters our environment, then it's fair game... I try to ignore them in their environment, besides I just jumped, the really nice looking Marine is the one who went in and squished it with two fingers (the expression of the students "GO WASH YOUR HANDS!!!" was priceless.... Thank you (cute) Marine for the really funny moment today, it helped to lighten the mood and boy did I need that!!!!
REALLY big hurdles occurred today.  In more ways than one, I went over and through..  I am so grateful for the strength that God provides me with on a daily basis.  I wish everyone a PEACEFUL night! Tomorrow when you say Thank God it's Friday.... Remember to actually mean that and it can  be a fabulous Friday, if you allow it!!!

9.20.12 Morning

Dear Heavenly Father,
As we begin this day, I ask that in all your Greatness, my family and friends who are in need of prayers are heard, especially Peggy, Robin, Allison, Jim, Kelly, Bob, Bob, Kenny, Jerry, Brendan, Ellen, Carol, Leslie, and Aunt Lorraine.  May we all live in a way that Glorifies your name.  Take time to thank those in your life! 
Amen

9.19.12 Evening

Tonight my "check in" simply read "clarity" at HT.  I had no idea how much I would gain and how I would feel walking out of there.  Listening to people discuss what they felt about why Job suffered and interpretations of the  text was really interesting.  Perhaps the part that I found most powerful was when a person spoke about how she felt she had to be with her father when he died, because she had always felt her mom died alone.  Although I do not feel like I have to be with my father, I understood what she meant about her mom.  It turned out that she discovered her mom was not alone and I can understand that moment as well... For all those years, I thought my mom died alone at the hospital, but my aunt recently told me, this was not the case, most of her family were there.  In different waiting rooms, but were there.  It brought tears to my eyes hearing her story and I was grateful that it was the end of the night and during our closing prayer, I thanked God for accepting my mom with family around her.  I am grateful for the conversation after, I love that my son has people who care enough to ask.  My children and I are so blessed. It was even nicer to arrive home to SLEEPING children... removed some anxiety about leaving on school nights....
Tomorrow is Thankful Thursday... Take the time to Thank God and those that touched your life.

9.19.12 Morning

Dear Heavenly Father,
Please I ask that in all your Greatness, my family and friends who are in need of prayers are heard, especially Peggy, Robin, Allison, Kelly, Bob, Bob, Kenny, Jerry, Brendan, Ellen, Carol, Leslie, and Aunt Lorraine.  May we all live in a way that Glorifies your name.  May everyone work to make this a wonderful Wednesday!
Amen

9.18.12 Evening

Tremendous Tuesday tore into town!!! I challenged you to help people without wanting anything in return.  How did you manage? One of my favorite questions from James Lipton (Inside the Actor's studio) I will not steal but goes something like this.. "If Heaven..what would you want said to you?" I would simply want God to say, "you tried your best". 
 it is really difficult to type without moving my arm/shoulder.  I am not sure what I did, but I believe I pulled something. As the "storms" come in tonight, I ask that everyone have patience while driving and lend a helping hand to those who may need assistance.  
Dear Heavenly Father,
The pain I feel is nothing compared to what Jesus felt.  I am grateful for his sacrifice.   Thank you for giving my cousin the greatest gift of hearing her baby's heartbeat, though in another womb, the baby will be welcomed into a wonderful family who are waiting anxiously.  Please I ask that my family and friends who are in need of prayers are heard, especially Peggy, Robin, Allison, Kelly, Bob, Bob, Kenny, Jerry, Brendan, Ellen, Carol, Leslie, and Aunt Lorraine.  May we all live in a way that Glorifies your name.  
Amen

9.18.12 Morning

As we awaken to what could be a dangerous weather day, I ask that we work to make today a tremendous Tuesday.  As I said last night take time to do for someone else, without wanting anything in return.  Take your time when the weather turns nasty and be patient.

Dear Heavenly Father,

I think about how Sometimes things may seem difficult to accept, but it is not my job to question.  I accept you are Selfless and Great.  I ask that my family and friends who are in need of their name being whispered in your ear are heard.  May Peggy, Robin, Kelly, Bob, Bob, Kenny, Jerry, Brendan, Ellen, Carol, Leslie ,  Aunt Lorraine, Marisa, Rich (and D) all feel your GREATNESS in their time of need.  

Amen

9.17.12 Evening

In my preparation for Sunday school for next week, I found myself not having a CLUE as to what I read, ten times... I began to doubt and second guess what I got myself into.  I emailed a friend whom I would consider more verse in the Bible and she understood the same and was just as confused at the same part.... boy did I feel better!!!  I appreciate the clarity from PM and it even made me think about the conversation I had with Jordan on the way home from school.
Recently I mentioned that Jordan received "shields" he was "caught" being nice to students and rewarded.  Today on the way home, I asked, "did you receive any more shields?" he responded,"no..." I said," did you stop being nice?" my son and I love him for this responded... "No, I was nice, but nobody was around to see it".  That is what I have always taught my son (and trying to do with my daughter).  We do for others, because we can and it is nice to do for others.
It made me think: Why do you do things for others?  At work, at home, at school? What motivates you?  Is it that you want to receive something in return? Is it more than that "good feeling"?
Tomorrow, my cousin's surrogate will have a sonogram.  I pray that everything is as it should be and that this will be what my cousin and her husband have been so patiently waiting to hear. Tomorrow take time to do something for someone else.  You never know how one event could change a person's life.
Dear Heavenly Father,
As I lay my head down tonight, I will think about how Great you are.  I ask that my family and friends who are in need of their name being whispered in your ear are heard.  May Kelly, Bob, Bob, Peggy, Kenny, Jerry, Brendan, Ellen, Carol, Leslie, Robin, Aunt Lorraine, Marisa, Rich (and D) all feel your GREATNESS in their time of need.  Thank you for giving me the strength and your unconditional guidance.
Amen

9.17.12 Morning

Ahhh Marvelous Monday is here! Do not fret, moan or groan, instead look at what it is, the beginning of not only a new day, but of a new week and for that we should be grateful! This morning, I am thinking of my friend and her family as they celebrate a special birthday and honor a wonderful man, who is missed by many!! <3 Love you L! How do you plan on celebrating the gift you received today, remember it is a marvelous Monday!
Dear Heavenly Father,

On this day of A new week, (for my Jewish friends, New Year), it is a perfect time to remember how great you are.  Please help us to Glorify Your name.  Please keep all those who are in need of healing in your prayers, Especially; Peggy, Kenny, Laura, Bob, Jerry, Brendan, Bob, Ellen, Carol, Leslie, Robin, Kelly, and Aunt Lorraine.

Amen 

9.16.12 Evening

Ahh Spiritual Sunday is coming to an end.... I was so happy to see Fran in the pew today.  It was nice to see her smile at Mackenzie and thank her (I assume she received the get well card).  Church with Mackenzie is always an adventure, but I do so enjoy the 10:30 service... it's always good to hear a Sermon for a second time (who's kidding, I mean hear it).
I am glad I was able to go and help my friends start to move some stuff back in their newly remodeled GORGEOUS home.. then came home to a realistic JETS game... on an EXCITING note, I made a REALLY GOOD dinner,,, the kids really enjoyed it and I had enough pork left that I shredded it up and made it BBQ pork for another night's dinner (YAY)!!!!!!  Above all, I am MOST grateful  the migraine I had all weekend... seemed to finally go away.

I am asking St. Anthony to help us find those bifocal glasses, as Mackenzie snapped Jordan's reading glasses and we now have NO glasses for school.

Dear Heavenly Father,
On such a glorious day, it was even easier for us to see how spectacular you are.  Please help us to live in ways that Glorify Your name.  Please keep all those who are in need of healing in your prayers, Especially; Peggy, Kenny, Bob, Jerry, Brendan, Bob, Ellen, Carol, Robin, Kelly, Leslie, and aunt Lorraine. Amen

9.16.12 Morning

Spectacular Spiritual Sunday singing glorious songs to our Lord.

Dear Heavenly Father,

On such a glorious day, it is even easier for us to see how spectacular you are.  Please help us to live in ways that Glorify Your name.  Please keep all those who are in need of healing in your prayers, Especially; Peggy, Kenny, Bob, Jerry, Brendan, Bob, Ellen, Carol, Fran, Robin, Kelly, and aunt Lorraine. Amen

9.15.12 Evening

I am grateful for the opportunity to say thank you to our Heavenly Father.  I just finished inscribing in my son's Bible and although I have pain, I feel a sense of hope and comfort.  I also thank JJ for the idea of the way in which I will send my son on a hunt through his Bible.  I believe he will enjoy that more!  It was nice to see dear friends from HS today.  I am especially grateful the migraine was just a mild headache at that point..  As I get ready for bed, I am hopeful for a peaceful morning and wish everyone a Spectacular Spiritual Sunday!!!

On such a beautiful night after a lovely weather day, it is even easier for us to see how great you are.  Please help us to live in ways that Glorify Your name.  Please keep all those who are in need of healing in your prayers, Especially; Peggy, Kenny, Bob, Jerry, Brendan, Bob, Ellen, Carol, Fran, Robin, Kelly, and Aunt Lorraine. 
Amen

9.15.12 Morning

Super Saturday snapping to God's song.
Dear Heavenly Father,
In all the world around us, we see how great you are.  Please help us to live in ways that Glorify Your name.  Please keep all those who are in need of healing in your prayers, Especially; Peggy, Kenny, Bob, Bob, Ellen, Carol, Fran, Robin, Kelly, and Aunt Lorraine.
Amen

9.14.12 Evening

Jordan was so excited to tell me that he had remembered everything, he sent me a text as soon as he got on the bus... Sometimes when we look so forward to something, it is an even harder "blow" I felt such pain for my son as I had to text that his friend could not come over as he would be grounded when he got home.  Jordan probably knew before the child knew.
Jordan is such an emotional gentle kid, he just couldn't grasp why.... "But I did everything you told me to do, for nothing?"  I laughed and said, "well you can still have fun, your friend on the other hand, well he won't be doing anything but two Science projects this weekend.... do you still think it was for nothing?"
It was a hard night for him, but there were moments of seeing that sweet child I know...I am so proud of him, he received two shields this week.  When a student is "caught" doing something nice they receive a shield.  Jordan is always wanting to help others and it's nice that he can.  .. he wanted to make us cookies, so we all walked over to shoprite (instead of going to bed).... This really was a treat and a reward, and a special moment (for both kids)...
Mackenzie had a great week in school and I am REALLY proud of her for that.  Before people say, HUH? Yes, she is still at her Godmother's home, but she is being home schooled and loves it.  I am so grateful for Kim and all the work she does with the girls and for Carol for EVERYTHING... my children have a safe place to go each day and that makes everything easier.
Tonight as I start to close my eyes, I thank our Heavenly Father for everything he has given us and for the answers that are yet to come... wishing you all a fabulous Friday night sleep, and that tomorrow when you awaken in the morning light, you start to see a super Saturday!!!!!

9.14.12 Morning

Fabulous Friday found its way to tell you to get up! May we all find the time to stop and see what is right in front of us, answers appear all the time, we just need to welcome them.
Dear Heavenly Father,
Please help us to feel Your amazing Grace and watch over those going camping, including; Peggy, Basil, Luke.  Please let today be the day Robin receives the call she has been waiting patiently for. May we all keep,  Kelly, Kenny, Carol, Peggy, Brendan, Ellen, Bob, Bob, Fran, and my aunt Lorraine in your healing prayers.
Amen

9.13.12 Evening

You will pass through deep waters,

      But I will be with you.

You will pass through the rivers,

      But their waters will not sweep over you.

You will walk through fire,

      But you will not be burned,

      The flames will not harm you. - Isaiah 43.2

When we feel as if we are "in over our heads," we can take refuge in the fact that we are not alone, we shall be lifted up as to keep the water from going over our head.  When we feel as if we have come "to the end of our rope," we can feel the hand on the other end, pulling us to safety.  I have my reasons for saying all of this, but for now all I can say is perhaps the end is near.

My dear friend is about to go camping with her grandson..  This to me is SO AMAZING.. Not only is she going with a completely torn acl, SHE HATES CAMPING!!!!! This inspires me!!! She is such an amazing mom and grandmother, this is what I wish my mother, would have done for my children.  

Dear Heavenly Father,

As we lay our heads down tonight, I thank you for your unbelievable grace.  Thank you for allowing us the opportunity to serve you.  Please watch over Luke, Peggy and Basil along with all the other grandparents and campers.  May Bob, Kenny, Peggy, Ellen, Carol, Kelly, Robin, Fran, Brendan, and Aunt Lorraine remain in your healing prayers.  Thank you for lifting Jordan above the waters, May Robin feel your gracious hand at the end soon.  

Amen

9.13.12 Morning

Today has arrived! Thankful Thursday the thirteenth tackled its way to you.  Think long and hard about what this means to you.  Who are you thankful to have in your life? When was the last time you told them? Those may know how you feel, but take the time to tell them again.
Dear Heavenly Father,
Thank you for your unconditional love and always keeping your door unlocked.  As my friends begin  their day worried about their husbands,  please help them all through.  I ask that you keep Bob, Kenny, Peggy, Brendan, Laura, Robin, Bob, Carol, Ellen, Kelly, and Fran in your Glorious hands. 
Amen

9.12.12 Evening

Tonight as we began the Bible study of JOB, we were asked why we were there.  I do not like this part of the group.  To have many (more eyes than I have ever seen in that room) staring at me is nerve-wracking.  Everyone is lovely and welcoming, it is me and I know that.  My response was only half of why I am there... I was encouraged to be part of the book club by PM, what I didn't say was similar to what everyone else said, many of us have gone through things in our lives and we question "why?".  I have been trying the approach that others did say, "why not me?" About 7 months ago, I started to show my gratefulness for even those things in my life that "I could do without, as they say" as I understand it's a lesson I need to learn.

I received an e-mail just as I left the Bible study, I apparently need to write in the Bible that was given for Jordan.  I did not realize this and feel completely lost on what I should write!!!! I just started reading the Bible, I do not have a "favorite".... feeling a little lost and overwhelmed!

I am grateful for the opportunity to hear the history of JOB tonight.  It is a great reminder to see what we are going through and keep our eyes on God's gracious path, in which we do not know, but must keep the Faith that "..we will be led where we did not plan to go".... Going to the Bible study was the first break I had in awhile.  I thought I had a compromise with my kids father, that allowed them to be in their own beds on time .  However, an hour and twenty minutes after their bedtime, the kids were not only awake but out of bed and tomorrow morning, I will see the consequences.  I do not know if this is going to work, as much as I want this, I know and understand the kids and their schedule come before my wants.

Dear Heavenly Father,
Your unconditional love and grace is more than any of us could ever imagine.  Please help me to live in a way that Glorifies your name and in a way that you so desire.  Please help, Peggy, Kenny, Carol, Ellen, Bob, Robin, Aunt Lorraine, Bob, and Fran to heal quickly so they too can live in a way that will Glorify your name.  I ask that you provide Jordan with the grace to continue to be the better person.
Amen

Wishing you a peaceful night and that tomorrow morning as we awaken we say a prayer of thanks for whatever part of the plan shall be in store for us tomorrow. Take that time, tomorrow is Thankful Thursday!

9.12.12 Morning

Dear Heavenly Father,
In all your greatness, please help us to live in a manner that Glorifies you.  As we awaken on this Wonderful Wednesday, I ask that we keep, Peggy, Robin,  Carol, Laura, aunt Lorraine, Bob, Ellen, Bob and Fran in your Grace and help them as they work on healing.  Please help Jordan to stand up and speak for himself in a manner that is acceptable.  Please Bless all those who will begin to the book study today, may we understand that we are not looking for answers of why, rather meaning to our life experiences. May we all work to make today a Wonderful Wednesday for everyone around us!
Amen

9.11.12 Evening

I have erased this twice already.  I am going to start by saying how grateful I am that today was a peaceful day. Many people spoke about how the sky was the same as it was 11 years ago.  I am grateful that the families and friends who went to remember their lost loved ones had a sunny day to allow the sun's warmth of God's embrace to wrap around them.

I am also grateful that I was able to have a conversation this afternoon.  I should have realized that nothing happens in my life happens by chance and "the sign of God is that we will be led where we did not plan to go"  I did not know just how important it would become.  I spoke about forgiveness specifically forgiving people who are not in my life at this point by my choice.  Understanding the reason why it is so important to let go of the anger and forgive, this was on my brain when I picked up my children.

My son asked me tonight what the word G A Y means.  I asked him, why? He then said that a kid on his bus called him that and said that he was.   I immediately explained what it meant and gave him examples of who we know who are gay and why there is NOTHING wrong with it.  I then started to e-mail his case manager, then I recalled, this weekend, PM spoke about advocating,  Although this conversation angered me, I realized the way I need to advocate for Jordan in this matter is by teaching him how to handle a situation like this and be here for him.  I cannot fight ignorance for him, he has to learn how to handle it. " There are people in our lives and in our world who need us to be their advocates, in prayer and in other practical ways.  Who are they?  What do they need us to say? To do?  May the Holy Spirit open up our eyes to see others’ suffering, our ears to hear God’s call, our hands to join in the work of the Kingdom.  Amen" - PM 9/8

9.11.12 Morning

As we awaken to a sunny day, it has a feeling of the past.  We remember, we are more United.  
Dear Heavenly Father,
As we begin this day and remember those who were lost, may we find comfort in your embrace and find a sense of ease in Your unconditional love.  May we also remember those who need assistance in physical healing, Aunt Lorraine, Peggy, Laura, Robin, Bob, Fran, Ellen, and Bob. We thank you for the ability to hold you in the highest regard and Glorify your name. 
Amen

9.10.12 Evening

11 years ago, My family was in a car accident.  I will never forget the sounds of the work-van crashing through the back of my Saturn.  I will never forget the impact that night had on us.  My son was only an infant and his car seat defiantly protected him. I recall being pulled out and placed on a backboard and  lying there for hours.  I recall seeing my children's father, laying down as the impact broke the driver seat.  This was a scary night.  That night, we thought it was the worst thing that happened in our lives.
Then we woke up to a plane crashing through one of the twin towers and watched in horror as the second plane hit.  I recall being grateful for the car accident that we were in, for that meant we were all together.  Having family that worked in NY and family that worked near Washington, I watched paralyzed waiting to hear from everyone.   A friend came to pick us up and take us to the chiropractor that afternoon.  I remember being so terrified as to what this meant for the world around us.
I did a lot of questioning those days following.  I questioned how this could happen.  How could there be such evil in this world to destroy so many innocent lives?! I have friends who lost family and friends on 9/11/01 and every day I think about the children who said goodbye to their mom or dad before going to school, only to never see, hear, or touch them again.I cannot imagine what anyone felt and those who were on the phone with their loved ones still gives me goosebumps.  I have never liked airplanes to be in NYC and hear a plane flying overhead still paralyzes me. It took a long time for me to go into NYC.  I have already said I am a fearful person.
Tonight before you go to sleep, think about what you were doing 11 years ago, and how did you change the next morning? Perhaps tomorrow morning you may decide to make more changes.
It does not matter who you plan to vote for in November, what matters is that We are AMERICAN and show how UNITED we are and STAND together!!! Tomorrow morning when we awaken again on a Tuesday morning.  We will be different, we will show no fear we will continue to live our lives as a tribute to those who lost theirs.  We will remember Patriot Day.  Remember those who risk their lives  on a daily basis not only to PROTECT us and provide us with the Freedom to do as we wish, but to save us and our possessions.  Remember those who go in the opposite direction and thank them.  Most of all Thank our Lord, for giving you the day to be able to do all of this.

9.10.12 Morning

 
Morning! Sometimes I wonder why i bother to have my alarm set, I do not recall the last time I used it to wake me up?! Marvelous Monday made its way here.  Many do not like to emerge from the comfort of their bed on Mondays, I choose to see Monday as the fresh start that it is.  Especially this week, as we approach the anniversary of the day that changed us forever. May those who need their name "whispered" in God's ear, feel God's power and I pray it is enough to help each heal.  Time to wake the children.

9.9.12 Evening

Dear Heavenly Father,
We pray for the health of those who are ill, especially Fran who was in Church worshiping you while she had a medical emergency.  Please help her, Aunt Lorraine, Peggy, Laura, Kelly, Robin, Kristiane, Bob, Ellen, and Bob to heal and  be whole again.  Both children were especially worried today during service.  and during bedtime prayers.
Amen

Today felt like when I first started coming to HT.  Well the 10:30 service, Just like this photo (I took last night from my candle), THERE WAS PEACE today LOL  I started this morning with such HOPE and I placed my fears in God's hands... Mackenzie not only walked down the stairs, she walked right into the classroom and was more than happy for me to walk away.  I am so proud of her!!!!!!!!!!  She really was a big girl.  Even tho there was s scare after, she is more than READY for next Sunday and has been talking all about everything they did in PRE-K (thanks what she calls Sunday School).

Sometimes being a single mom is frustrating...My son has always been a "helper" and since January he has really been trying to HELP parent.....  today I told him when he was done with Sunday School to meet me in the Fellowship Hall.... I left the service a few minutes early and went downstairs to get Mackenzie... she wasn't in her classroom... they're just learning everyone and knew they wouldn't let anyone leave without someone, thought maybe an older sibling picked her up... I went back upstairs to hear my daughter SCREAMING/CRYING in a panic that she could not find me.  She finally calmed down and started to tell me all about "pre-K".

It was then nice to go and have lunch with "our 2 Sisters" they are so sweet!!! Jordan and Pat made lunch for us while Helen, Mackenzie and I played with a memory game and talked.. it was comical that we all ended up wearing some of our ice cream!!!!!! It was a busy morning/early afternoon... Had to throw our Church clothes in the washer immediately....and I kept trying to stay awake while the JETS played, however, I was more than happy to fall asleep for a bit while Mackenzie took her nap!!!! I figured I was safe when I saw 41-14!!!! THANK YOU, JETS... nice opening GAME...

It is a nice feeling to have some "reading" time... I am hoping everyone stays IN their beds and actually falls asleep without any MORE issues.... I really need to finish reading for Wednesday night.... It is just so difficult for me to read sometimes... I get VERY sleepy!!! - UGHHH an hour after bedtime.. my daughter has come out again.. REALLY I need a night!!!!
Tomorrow morning I will make it a marvelous MONDAY!!!!!

9.9.12 Morning

Today is Spectacular Spiritual Sunday.  A few minutes ago, Mackenzie woke up looking for me.  She realized I was in her bed and said "mommy why aren't you with me?" My response, "I am, but you kicked me out of my bed last night!" in such a sweet voice I heard, "oh Im sorry." I told her it was ok and to go back to sleep till the alarm went off.
I remain hopeful that today will be alright, I place it in the most capable hands, God will see us through.  I am hopeful and excited that a sweet person will return again this morning.  I believe she felt the Hope, Peace, and Joy of being back in the Church she grew up in.  I saw the happiness in both her eyes and in PM to ser her home again.  Im grateful she said yes, to attending with me. I have a smile on my face whenever she is near.
The Hope that I speak of for Mackenzie is that she will begin and always feel the Peace that comes in Sunday School.  There is a also a Joy in knowing as my son begins this year of Sunday School, he will make his Holy Communion soon (Nov.). This is another reason I adore being here.  Although my son will attend meetings, he was placed in the sixth grade.  When I missed my HC class, I was placed back in with the second grade.  It was that sense of being punished, that is NOT what happens here, for that I am so grateful!! The alarm is about to go off, time to get ready for a full day.  Shake some hands and send well wishes, for today is spiritual Sunday, make it spectacular!

9.8.12 Evening

AHHHH it's Saturday night and storms have ripped through here. We spent a lot of time today talking about tomorrow.  Tomorrow is a pretty big day for Mackenzie... I am HOPEFUL that she will go through the open door without the tears and without clinging to me.  We talked about why there is no need to cry, why she will have fun, why she will be going to Sunday School!!!!!  lol I am a little worried though..... she is still not 100% (finished her second antibiotic) she took an extra long nap and well she just came out of her room an hour and half after bedtime and said she can't sleep!!!!! I will remain hopeful that she will fall asleep and awaken ready to begin a new day and a new chapter, one filled with God's love....

14 As for me, I will always have hope;
          I will praise you more and more.- psalm 71

9.8.12 Morning

Today is a day that many have been waiting for... Spectacular Saturday is smiling straight in your sight.  Look close and see that the there are many reasons to be so grateful! Whether you have lots to do or a day of rest, take the time to thank our Lord! Spend today telling everyone what is  right instead of what might be wrong.

9.7.12 Evening

How could I make this blog any sweeter than to have one of God's blessings saying the Lord's Prayer? 

I spoke a lot today with my children's father, and it reminded me of how when we work together life is so much nicer for everyone involved.  Instead of people fighting and arguing, instead of trying to "one" up each other, if we lent a hand and found a way to support one another... this world would be a better place... That's how I would spend my 48!!!! How about you? 

I covered the windows, and am hoping tomorrow morning the kids sleep in.. would love for Mackenzie to get over the Bronchitis and for Jordan to get some much needed sleep.... but for now.. I will take that they are finally in their beds for the night and I have a lot of reading to do.... 

Today was a fabulous Friday and tomorrow shall be a spectacular Saturday... wishing you a PEACEFUL night... 

9.7.12 Morning

Not many people have read last nights blog, if you are one, this may not make sense.  The 48 starts now!!!! Make it count.  How will you make today a fabulous Friday, not just for yourself, but for those around you?
Dear Heavenly Father,
Your grace and love are visible everywhere I look.  Please continue to bless us with your unconditional love.  Just as we say prior to sleep, please keep, Mommy, Jordan, Mackenzie, Daddy, All of our family, all of our friends,  (This is where she starts naming so many people- although wonderful, it can take awhile, I remind her almost everyone falls into the friend or family grouping) those who are traveling (never fails, she says Emmy here)  those who are sick, aunt Lorraine, Peggy, Robin, Laura, Bob, Kelly, Kristiane, Ellen, Bob and Brady to heal and feel better soon, Those who are looking for work, Robin, those who are in life changing moments, Marisa, Rich and the wonderful woman carrying their greatly desired baby close in your hand. All of our animals, Pastor Mary and her fancily. Pastor Arnie and his family in your glorious arms and guide us through this day.
Amen
Find a way to make it a fabulous Friday!

9.6.12 Evening

Sometimes in life we play the WHAT IF game.. When we want to change things in life, most people tell you, not to play that game...Well what if you couldn't go back and change things (because you know you can't) but I ask what if you found out that you had 48 hours to live.  How would you spend it? What would you do? Who would you spend it with? Where would you go? 

NOW, WHY would you choose all of those answers? Are those answers different from how you are choosing to live right now? Can you realistically live in those answers?
7 Your beginning will seem humble,
        so prosperous will your future be.- Job 8

Remember that every day is a gift and that no matter what God has given us this opportunity to live each day with the knowledge that nothing is forever.  How do you choose to live? 

9.6.12 morning

As I lay here and wait for the alarm to go off. I thought about what This day means to me.  I am stopping to thank God for the opportunity to awaken and the choices that await me.
Dear Heavenly Father,
The beauty of your great world reminds me of just how great you are.  We can only try to live in your beauty and glorify your name. Please help: Peggy, Laura, Robin, Bob, and Kristiane to heal so that they too can be healthy.  Please remind those who have decisions to make, to keep the Faith in you.
Amen
May you take time today to thank those who mean something to you, on this Thankful Thursday.

9.5.12 Evening

Tonight marks the night before I started my employment six years ago.   So much has changed in my life since then.   Some people think that when we pray, we are not heard.  I am here to say, we DO receive answers.. THEY just may not come in a manner in which we thought.  I am here to share... MANY of my own prayers recently are answered.. I may need to LISTEN more in depth to what is going on to see the answer is there.. but I am getting answers.
I was once told, our life is a series of choices.  This is true, we can choose to LISTEN to the answers and figure out how to do things or we can choose to make our life more difficult by ignoring what is RIGHT in front of us, next to us, behind us, above us, and under us lifting us up when we need it.  I am seeing that a choice although REALLY difficult for me, is the answer to a prayer in another form. I am so grateful to have the validation of knowing why I am making the choice and understand in order to truly move forward I must stay centered and always show my love and praise to the Heavenly Father.
Tomorrow may we all take the time to thank those who have touched our lives and be grateful for Thankful Thursday...

9.5.12 Morning

Sitting at a light, Dropped off my children and am grateful for an uneventful start this morning!
Dear Heavenly Father,
May you keep all your children safe and happy. May your children live in a way that glorifies you.
Amen
Off to peace.

9.4.12 Evening

As I try to get the last minute things together for tomorrow morning.. I realize this is the first year that it will be just the three of us tomorrow morning taking the annual picture... I am so grateful to have my children and to be able to have this moment with them...
As I typed this there was a knock on the door, it was their dad coming to drop off Jordan's ice tea and snacks for school and a microwave!!!!! I was happy the kids got to give daddy a hug good night... (even tho they should have been asleep already!!!)
I think about the fact that tomorrow will be the first time my son will stand at a bus stop and wait for a bus....and ALONE...  I guess it's time, I gave him the WHAT to do if something happens on the bus and what NOT to do...  I have to have FAITH that he will be alright.
My baby girl will start her home school kindergarten with Bronchitis .... good grief.. I believe that is how Jordan started Kindergarten..lol Clothes are ready and bags are hanging in their new homes for the year....

After I drop them off, I will go to Church, can't imagine a better place to be...  Tomorrow morning will be a wondrous Wednesday.....

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Facebook posters can either make you laugh, cry, or just stop and smile.... here are two that made my day...

9.4.12 Morning

Good morning Tuesday, yesterday I said we should take the time to trace the Trinity and be thankful!  I am so thankful that I feel the love from above and I will try to Listen more!!!
Dear Heavenly Father,
As we welcome this Tuesday, may we feel your love and choose to glorify your name! Please help everyone travel safely to their destinations on this rainy day.  I continue to ask that you keep, Aunt Lorraine, Peggy, Laura, Robin, Kelly, Kim and Paul, and Kristiane, in your health prayers.
Amen
May you feel the Holy Trinity on this Tremendous Trinity Tuesday!

9.3.12 Evening

So grateful for HUMOR... find it in everything....

Isn't it amazing how little things can make you smile.... our friend gave us a microwave... it was an old (dial) microwave and has worked alright since we moved in.... today the boys decided they wanted popcorn... Well with new microwaves they have popcorn sensors etc... an older one doesn't, you have to watch it... I was listening for the popping, the boys just walked away... the popping stopped so I ran in there... it had started to burn the bag, but when I took it out Mackenzie looked inside the microwave to put her bag in, and screamed... the glass tray (a square that does not turn) was SHATTERED...  I do not know for sure but I believe it happened during the popcorn... as I would HOPE my son would have noticed it was shattered prior to putting it in.. but then again he asked me where my keys were that were right in front of him.   Anyway, it really just made me laugh... this poor microwave has lived through who knows what, and seriously a bag of microwave popcorn took it out.... lol I started the search for sales on one and a friend said she has an extra... THANK YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

While Jordan had his friend here all day, and Mackenzie was laying around feeling sick again, I washed all the dirty laundry folded, and PUT THEM AWAY.... yippppeeeeeeee........I commented yesterday about how it feels good to de-clutter, get organized and clean...

Since school let out, I have asked my darling son to CLEAN his room, finish unpacking (only been here since end of APRIL) and to make sure he has printed his summer homework and has his glasses in his new book bag...
TONIGHT..... I helped him unpack, clean, and we still cannot locate the mis-placed glasses... but HEY we have TWO glass cases and the NON bi-focal pair of glasses..... 

St. Anthony, St. Anthony
Please come down
Something is lost
And can't be found..... 
PLEASE help locate Jordan's bifocal glasses preferably before Wednesday... Thank you...

Hard to believe, but tomorrow is Tremendous Trinity Tuesday... lots to do and a doctors appointment to make... Take the time to trace the Trinity and be THANKFUL.

9.3.12 Morning

Good morning! Happy Labor Day! Marvelous Monday, marched itself in making you want to stand up and say, thank you?, I hope so!! No matter what, we have so many who are giving us that opportunity, starting with God and then all the Brave men and women who stand up each day to protect us.
Dear Heavenly Father,
We thank you for giving us a chance to live in a way that glorifies you.  We ask that you keep an eye on those who serve to protect this beautiful life you gave us.  May one day there no longer be a need, as we all learn how to Listen to one another and live in peace by respecting differences and the value they possess.
Amen
Make miracles multiply, this Marvelous Monday!

9.2.12 Evening

Today started out with such peace at Holy Trinity.... It was nice to sit with someone special and Mackenzie was pretty good.  PM's Sermon was even caught by Mackenzie.... all about LISTENING...  I loved it!!! Mackenzie and I had the greatest conversation about how we need to listen and she said, "Yes, we need to listen more than we speak!"

12 But if they do not listen,
    they will perish by the sword^[a]
    and die without knowledge.- JOB 36 NIV

There is also something else that I picked up from today.... I have A LOT of reading to do!!!! - Thanks PM for my homework!!! And I thought I was taking a break from homework this September?!.. WRONG... Anyone want to help me with the Book of JOB? lol

After Church, the kids then got to chill and NAP (thank you Mackenzie), while I got to DE-clutter and clean.. It is a great feeling to start the school year off with all the school supplies in a cleaned out hutch and separated for each of them.  I also found I have a WHOLE TABLE??? lol and all the clean laundry has a home other than bags and baskets?? lol

SO GRATEFUL for friendship....The kids got to enjoy the afternoon with their friends separately and I even had a "play date" as well.  It was a great afternoon and then more friends came over tonight- nice to have adults here, so much fun...(kids got to stay up past their bedtime too) and Jordan is having his first sleep over here... it was cute, his friend said 'this is my first sleep over".... so cute...!!!!

As we say good night to this Spectacular Spiritual Sunday, we say good morning to a Marvelous Labor, Monday !!! We are so blessed to have the Freedom to decide whether or not to Listen and to follow....  how will you Honor those who serve us?

9.2.12 Morning

Super spectacular Sunday Surely deserves a smile! Time to wake up and go worship in our Church community.  I pray for Peace and that however you plan to spend today, you enjoy the day and have time to be grateful.
Dear Heavenily Father,
Your glory is greater than any of us could imagine, please help us to live in a way that will glorify you and grant us peace and good health.
Amen

9.1.12 Evening

Super Saturday is shutting it's eyes.... we have been given the chance to enjoy the end of summer...  Tomorrow as I take my children to Church, I will be thankful for what we have and be reminded of those who are in need.  After all isn't life about seeing what others need? I pray that Aunt Lorraine, Peggy, Laura, Robin,  Kelly, Ellen and Bob all begin to heal.  

May the Lord provide what each of us needs tomorrow and always. 

Amen

Spectacular Spiritual Sunday is speeding through the night.... Show your love to all those you care about.

9.1.12 Morning

Good Morning! Super Saturday has stepped up to the plate.  Somewhere in all the craziness, it wants us to stop and see all the glorious sights around us.  I look out the window, lots of action on this, the last weekend of the summer.  So many things that we could go and do.... take time to thank God and those who are providing us with that freedom.  Wishing you a Super Saturday!!!!! May it be a relaxing and SAFE day. God Bless the USA!!!!