7/18/13

Today the temp outside was 99 where I was, the heat index made it 107 and in my office it was about 115.... the apartment is around 78.... and although it's not helping my headache to go away... I'm grateful to make it through another day, Thanks be to God.
This morning's message was:
Today is the perfect day to thank those thoughtful people in your life. Think of the times when they took the time to touch your life in a tremendous way. There are at least three in all of our lives.... There could be more... Who will you start with today, perhaps the one who gave us this day????
How did you do? I am grateful that I have so many people in my life that have helped to teach me many valuable lessons...and to pick me up and throw me back in after I have learned the lessons....both positive and negative.  As I was reminded when I thanked someone for being one of these people... "As you've done for so many others and as others have done for me..." If we continue to be there for each other, we will all be better off.  Above all remember "The sign of God is that we will be led where we did not plan to go." Nothing is meant to be easy.  So as you take the next step to reaching out to someone whether it is someone you just need to say something to or someone you have not spoken to in years... remember, you must cross the path of comfortableness in order to reach what you want.
Dear Heavenly Father,
As we get ready to end another week and begin the weekend... May we all remember to THANK GOD (for real) It's Friday.... May we all try to live in a way that will Glorify Your name and life each other up instead of leaving each other in the sand.
Amen

7/17/13

This morning I sent out this quick little message.....

"Today is a new day. It is a fresh start for what ails your mind. Take a pause look around, make a list of the things you can or need to do and tackle them one thing at a time. To avoid becoming overwhelmed, don't look at the overall picture.... Take each item one at a time. When you feel yourself going back under the water.... look up to God, you will be raised out of the water. It is "hump day" -the beginning of the rest of the week... Make it a Wondrous Wednesday!!"

So how did you do? I can tell you that I asked God to lift me up more than once today.
Dear Heavenly Father,
Please use Your Amazing Grace to lift me up above.  Take away the fears, ease the pain, and help me to deal with these things once and for all.  Help my friends and family whom are speding many moments worrying and in pain.
Amen

7/16/13

Dear Heavenly Father,

Please provide us all with peace through Your Grace.

Amen 

7/11/13

Have you ever felt like a moment in time can define how you are for the rest of the time...? I never knew that an hour could take so much out of me.  I have been asked before and told by many not to think or worry about what others say, rather to think how that impacts me.  Some how tho being asked tonight about these things.. was really harsh.  The person who really cracked the shell was the one person I wanted to talk to the most.  Having that same person say how I shut down and do not tell her things that are in my head, was difficult. Hearing and feeling the impact aftermath was really the impact I needed.  I will continue to open up and I will continue to be responsive to hearing the truths- perhaps from my own mouth....  

7/10/13

Have you ever woken up and thought this life in front of you... was all a dream or even a nightmare?  This morning I was able to do many things all before I arrived at work @8:20... it's like it was all a dream this morning.  The more time I spend with an amazing woman, the more I feel like my life is a wonderful dream...There may be times and situations that I feel overwhelmed or unable to "relax" or feel "on edge"... but really I am seeing the happiness within myself and I love that.  Tomorrow, I plan on trying to be even happier...... after all, only I am in charge of that...

7/7/13

This weekend has been difficult. To say I have been emotional is an understatement.  Today I woke up feeling a lot of mixed emotions.  I am excited for my gf.  Even tho our plans changed completely, I am grateful I got to spend time with her this weekend.  It was bitter sweet going to church today.  I was happy to be serving, sad she wasn't with me, and nervous about the Baptism.  I may not have been on the mark or even said everything right... but when I read the Scripture, I not only read it, I felt it.. . I ENJOYED reading it. I would even venture into saying I love it.  I am proud of myself for not giving up... there have been times that I had to push myself even more to get up and read.... and I am grateful to always have an encouraging word and hug from Pastor Mary at the end.

I was thinking after service today about how this could be related to some other things going on in my head....  Yes, there are plenty of things I would prefer to run away from.  There are fears that I am afraid are going to get me....  I just need to keep telling myself.. there are things I want in life both for me and for my kids and therefore giving in... is not an option.

I will work even harder to not let the emotions, fears, or stress weigh me down and take control.  I will embrace the new situation and take it for what it's worth.... a new beginning for all those involved... May this weekend come to a wonderful close and may the next week provide a world of opportunities for everyone.... Monday morning coming near... make it magnificent... 

7/3/13

So this morning, I was able to get up and go to mid week service with the woman I love.  This was a nice feeling.  Then it seemed like for a little bit.. I was able to forget about all of things that have been clogging my overly fried brain.... then it happened.... we went on a bike ride in the trails of shark river park... I would like to say.. I went willingly..... the boys on the other hand... well they were already HOT, TIRED, and having issues.... then and I mean after all of that... we got turned around and if we had a boat originally we could have turned ourselves into the next generation of Gilligan's Island.... Okay yes, I know it wasn't that bad.. but when you have one kid go down the trail and fall and the other who isn't used to actual physical activity... it felt like a lifetime.. and oh yeah I barely made it in time to get Mackenzie and get Jordan home in time to shower and get dressed (he was getting dressed as his dad walked in to get him).... Then I was able to finally get all the mud off of me.. and get my laundry in washer and into the dryer.. just in time to walk to meet Kellie to get to service... (okay I was actually late for service) ... but made it there as quickly as I could...
Now between this morning's service and the healing service.. I can say that I am blessed to have so many wonderful people in my life who not only support me.. but actually give a darn about me.. I am blessed... THANK YOU... I am grateful to see the response to the prayers being ask of God.. and I am trying to understand the current struggles I must face.  Thank you for the listening ears and the advice given tonight.. .I am trying to NOT listen to what is being said and to really understand that when someone is so miserable.. it's hard to see someone so happy.... guess what too bad.. I am happy, "I am loud and proud of that!!!!" My children have always been and will always remain my top priority to say anything else will only cause you discomfort.  As you celebrate the 4th of July, May we all stop and think about those who are fighting for us and be thankful....

Dear Father in Heaven,
Please help those who feel it's important to trash others to see that it does not help them to look any better than they are.  Please help those who are on the receiving end of the words and looks to know they have control and to not allow anyone else to run their life.  Please watch over and protect all those who have to make tough decisions and all those on the receiving end of news they may not want to hear.  Please continue to watch over those over seas and protecting us....
Amen