I choose to think about the "silver lining".....today was about celebrating life. The life that God has given us. Each day we are given a chance to live in way that will Glorify Him, how we choose to live.... that is up to us. On Sunday, I was asked to do something and without hesitation... I said no problem. It wasn't until Monday afternoon that I realized what this really meant for me. I put the situation first.... Yesterday, I started to think about the situation and internalize what it meant to me, it was definitely a VERY BIG deal. It made me think more and more about my mom. This morning, I "confessed" to someone the fears I had about what I was about to do. She knew what I meant and said I didn't have to do it. My response... it's time to grow up, I was not backing out.
It was incredibly difficult to watch and listen! There were moments when words were said that made me think even more of my mom and I become emotional. Today was one of those days... that I wonder how I will get through it, then I think of amazing women in my life and think I can do this, I can be half the women they are and make it through...
Although I have gone to "viewings", "wakes", and "memorials" I do not believe I have even sat in on a full funeral since 1987, till today. Not only was I ushering a funeral, I stood by the casket while one side of the church received Communion. Internal struggles, always make the accomplishment mean more.
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