1.20.13

I tried so hard this morning not to yell at an overly tired 11 yr. child, nor did I give in to the emotional "maybe I should just stay home" rant.. I was even more nervous when I heard, "she went to bed at 10, but I let her sleep till 8:30"  I knew it was sure to be a rough start... especially when she realized she was not headed to Church before Sunday School (she had an emotional breakdown herself).  It was an awesome (yet frustrating) moment... Even tho she cannot sit still and perhaps displays horrible behavior, she enjoys going.  So of course like any good parent, I video taped her telling me why she was crying... for later on during the teenager years in case I need something to remind her of why I will have her attend Service with me... much like the moment I had with her brother before picking her up.

The quote was posted on Facebook from Positive Inspirational Quotes and I could not think of a better thing to post with a picture of me serving our Lord.  A friend said this is becoming a habit and I responded I know weird right... and her response "I wouldn't choose weird to describe it more like wonderful.  I bet Pastor Mary can't get over it..." I simply said, "I do not know what she thinks, this is the first time I am serving w/ her".
It is even more aw-inspiring to be up at the Altar with her.  I thought about my Catholic upbringing and how you would not see three women standing there in white. Another thing that came to mind was watching my son sitting down with the other children talking with Pastor Mary about the Gospel today.  It is truly amazing to hear the difference between last night speaking to the congregation as a whole and then today speaking with the children.  Yes all the same concepts, but shows just how awesome she relates to every age group.  Speaking about weddings and talking about how two people come together before God and pledge to unite till death, was really difficult to hear especially to have eyes locked with my son.  Thinking back to sitting as a child, I remembered the horrible feelings I had sitting in Church and feeling like everything you said or did was being scrutinized.   I wondered if he would say something to me after service.  He has not as of yet, but with him it could be a few days.  Had I been in my old Church, I would have felt like the Priest was speaking directly to me in a manner of you should be ashamed with yourself for not doing as you promised... I found great comfort in knowing that Pastor Mary was not.
Although I am no longer married, I believe I am doing what He asked of me, to bring his children to him.  Bringing the three of us to HT and inviting Him into our hearts and daily lives.  So remember as the week begins, "Do what He tells you to do...."  Although things are stressful and sometimes I just do not know how I am going to do something... I am going to remember, the empty jar is really filled to the brim with the best He can offer.....
Dear Heavenly Father,
In all your Greatness, please Bless those who are coming before you to pledge their lives till death and to those who had many years ago.  See the wisdom in the those who were unable to fulfill that promise made before you.  Please keep watch over Lee and Grady and those who are ill and especially give those family member unable to be with them some Peace in knowing you are with them.
Amen