missed the morning 5/16/12

This morning was a little more difficult, appointment with Jordan's school and then somehow the car took me to Cranford.  My subconscious did the driving and knew right where I needed to be.  I arrived just in time (not knowing when KG had lunch) and just need to feel safe, OAS has always been a safe place.  People talk about what you want in life and how to get it.  Nobody really imagines when things are going on how little things like safety become an issue.  I am sure this feeling will pass, mainly because I won't allow it to take me down.  Although friends will be lost, there are many more who are not leaving.  These friends I am grateful for, I know some are worried, it will work out!!! I promise to take care of myself first so that I am able to take care of the kids.  Sitting here in silence once again, I am tired and my eyes want to shut, but the topic of prayer is on my brain, perhaps from the book club or perhaps just in my spiritual learning.  It amazes me how people can do it without ever really stopping to think and others like me have such a difficult time.  It was great to read in the book, and hear other members say they too have a difficult time with traditional prayer.  I said it before this is a form of prayer for me, I am thankful for the people who are in my life, good and bad as I understand there is a right reason for them to be there and once I learn the lesson, I will be better for it.  The sun is out and I choose to feel the warmth of love from those around.  TGIW.... Have a Wonderful Wednesday.