Evening of 5/12/12

On this the eve of my first Mother's Day as  a single mom, I reflect on the term unconditional love.  People say the minute you hold your child for the first time you understand the overwhelming sense of unconditional love.  This was true the first time I held Jordan.  I worried during my second pregnancy as many mother's do how will I be able to split my love equally? The first time I held Mackenzie, it seemed I had nothing to worry about.  Perhaps because I had a partner... a wise friend always says "never get out numbered by your kids"...I am now out numbered, but still my love for each of them somehow each receive 100%. It really is amazing the practice of unconditional love.  Really the love I have for these children goes way above any love I have ever felt for another person on this planet... including myself.    The real question is do we hold unconditional love for ourselves? Most of us do not.  We beat ourselves up over things that are not worthy of such abuse.  If each of us takes a minute tonight to look, really look in the mirror and tell the person looking back they love them and will put them as top priority, then everyone else falls into the appropriate place.  Does not mean you love anyone less, means you love them more!!! I cannot wait to awake in the morning and take my children to church and then spend the afternoon doing fun things they would enjoy doing, after all Mother's day mean more when the children can have fun and thus so can you.  Have a spiritual Saturday night.