Evening 5/17/12

 Denial- according to wikipedia:  "..(also called abnegation) is a defense mechanism postulated by Sigmund Freud, in which a person is faced with a fact that is too uncomfortable to accept and rejects it instead, insisting that it is not true despite what may be overwhelming evidence.^"I choose not to live in denial about the current situations I am living. Instead I choose to live in the moment.  This morning I said I do not feel courageous, but the opposite of fear is courage.  I do not want to live in fear, instead I guess I choose courage! I am taking back my life! Still being cautious, but not a basket case... Life will be different, that is for certain.  There is no going back to how things were, only how they will be for now on.  I know I have many people on my side.  Let me fall if I need to, just put out your hand to help me up! :) Life is good, I have my children and we are together... can't ask for anything more... REALLY I can't.. I am so grateful!!! Thank you!