10.11.12

Why is 9 afraid of 10??? Because it has 11 and 12 after it..lol Ok I know that isn't really the joke.. but I thought about it when I typed the date.. lol Many people had that idea on how to get through yesterday... to think of tomorrow... Yesterday morning, someone came to me during coffee hour and asked if I was alright...I sent her an email today thanking her for taking the time to not only ask, but for caring.. Her response touched me even more... "People at HT care!"  It is so true....  Last night in the Book Study, when I walked in a sweet woman (I have been with her for three book clubs now) looked at me and said "what's wrong"  I really was trying and said, "nothing I'm ok".. she knew and said no you are not.  This is one of the reasons this book club is so good for me.  It makes me look at things I would prefer not to.  Since we were not alone, I said think of the last book club, and simply said 25 years.  She later came to me after and said, you will be ok... tomorrow is the 11th!..  This is similar to what PM said after, I made it through the day.  I did and I was proud of myself..

Last night tho, I felt the loss and allowed myself to grieve the new loss associated with it.  And then today I was reminded that people will not change unless THEY want to, and it's time that I stop enabling situations.   Boundaries will be set!

This morning, the door opened.  As soon as I get things done (already have apts scheduled) I will be able to work as a sub!  As happy as I am for this... .I am even more excited for the news my aunt expressed.  Today was her final (33) radiation treatment.  She is doing great and touched the lives of the techs for her positive grateful attitude.  They cried that today was her last day and I am so grateful it was.  I too share her response, "I hope never to see you again".... I also pray that she will never have to either...  Made me think though... see what a positive attitude can do for others? I said it a few weeks ago... although it's up to the person you are around.. how we are affects the mood of the room and being positive is a much better way of living.    Today is Thankful Thursday and I am so thankful for not only the privileged to now get to know my aunt but to have her be a part of my children s' lives..
May today be a new beginning for you as well.... most of all, it is Thankful Thursday!!!!!