3.8.13

Who stands in the way of what you want? Who has control over the things you do? Someone once told me to pray...  I said NO.  Someone once told me to ask God for help.. I said why bother? Someone once said God is there,  I said impossible, because really who would allow things to happen as they had?  MANY people said go to church for YEARS..  I said NO!  I ended up at a Catholic University, I took several religion classes, I was placed in not one but two Catholic elementary schools for experience in teaching.  I was required to take the children to church... I still had no idea what was going on and what most of it meant...
It took a major event... I separated from my ex... no it didn't make me go to church.. it made me want to deal with the  death of my mom.. and my friend kept talking to me about religion...I kept ignoring her.  Finally one day I asked her to continue.  She invited me to attend a service... finally I did... then another church... then I heard what finally made sense.. I then started having conversations that blew my mind.  Not only did I begin to understand, I wanted to understand it.
Someone once told me I should write a book of inspirational messages... I said no...I enjoy sending them to my friends... then I started to enjoy posting them on FB.... Then someone said I should write a blog.... I said no, soon I started up the blog...  Then people told me I am very good listener/ problem solver (as long as it's not my own problems) and perhaps I should look to a career serving in a capacity of helping.  I said I wanted to teach.  Someone once warned me to be careful about how much I get involved/volunteer at the church as once you start... you will get sucked in...I laughed and said I won't....  One day a sixth grader stood up and said how they would be attending church because they did not have enough teachers.... I offered to teach.  I lost my job, then Sandy hit, I spent my days helping those who needed help.  I became a sub and started to help out when I could at the church.  I was asked to read an advent prayer.. and couldn't in front of a church... I was asked to be a communion assistant, I said no.  Christmas Day, I volunteered and served- I even read.  I have since served several times... I have since read several times.
You might wonder, What is the point to all of this.. I had a lot to think about today.. Yesterday's question on whether or not I would change anything I did this year... well really this is all a perfect example of HOW THINGS HAVE CHANGED ME.. .all for the better.. I STEPPED outside my comfort zone... I started to get involved in aspects of the church and volunteer to help even more and you know what ... .I LOVE IT.
When I received three emails with similar messages and then read a comment on FB... I stopped....read it twice and called California!!!! Yes, I will share the post   "Have you ever thought of a complete career change or actually thinking of something more in the line of vocation. Your posts and blogs reflect the person you are today and that is so different than who you were a year or two ago. Pray over it." Could I really do/choose to do something in the line of vocation... realistically NO.... I do believe that I have been lead "kicking and screaming through my life" to this point where I finally understand and have embraced God in all the Grace and Understanding,.... I have been told by a number of people that I am giving a gift to others by writing my blog and I am grateful for not only those who say that.. but for those who feel it.  I enjoy providing these words and images... mostly... I am grateful to those who will wake up tomorrow and want to do something for someone else.  After all, Sensational Saturday stops only for seconds for you to step up.... MAKE each step a blessing to someone else.